last blog for the year~

ahem....i know i had been missing in action for half a month....hahhaha! i was sick....sore throat, fever and followed by flu....but i am fully recovered now...i guess....hahhahha! it was weird that i am still waiting for 2009 while all my friends in malaysia had celebrated it....kinda felt like i am 'outdated' or in the history~ hahhaha! as mentioned by allysa....

my coursemates asked me out for celebration...clubbing....but i dont feel like going....it's so crowded....not to mention it was -2 degree this afternoon with sun shining! imagine the nite time...(which is now...currently 9.50pm with a temperature of -4 and foggy)...argh! no fun at all....i am still thinking of excuse to reject....kinda hard eh? hm....i noticed a lot of my friends in malaysia ended up online instead of going out for celebration....hahha! where i ended chatting with them through the year~ hahhahha! my eldest sis ended up chatting with me and wishing each other a great year ahead~

i chatted with one of my childhood friend too...of 16 years.....by the end of 2009, it'll be 17 years...and still counting...i am proud to announce it~ and she is not the only one, of course...since i travel in pack~ hahhahha! five of us....still keeping in touch although a few of us hadn't met each other for 10 years....haha! i wondered how it'll turn out to be when we gathered... and another guy friend of mine...also 16 years of friendship, always in the same class...(you know who you are~) hhahahha! and another guy, whom had been in the same school eversince i started reading (that's right, kindergarten) hahhahha! i am proud to have all these friends painting my memories, filling them with colours.....

not to forget, some true friends i made...i may not known them for decades..(gosh, i sounded like an old lady)...but the friendships they offered are more than enough to last in my memories for a lifetime...kazak, annie aka hippo, ngoh-ngoh, jojo aka xiao an, geetha, ahwong (and the gang), yhann, my summer groupmates, chin, anny, yong, kc, song, yyee...sorry for those i did not mention, but you'll still be in my heart, as a part of my wonderful memories....(i sounded like i won an oscar~) hahha!

last but not least, my family~ yup...you guys!!! 2008 is definitely a great year!! i might be spending most of my time in liverpool (2008 & the coming 09), but you guys never fail to be a part of my memories....hhaha! i love you ALL~ (definitely not ashamed to declare my love & devotion to my family)

my resolution made for you guys : may the pursuit of health, love, luck, wealth, successes, achievements, dreams, wishes, hopes, & happyness, all ended up within your grasps...

p/s: notice that it is only ONE resolution~ the second resolution?

second resolution: making all the first resolution come true~

muahahhahha! who can beat my resolution? not greedy, only 2 resolution, and it MUST come true~ ngek!ngek!ngek!

resolution for myself: Quit Chocolate...sound impossible? that is why it is only a RESOLUTION....tailor-made for myself...muahhaha!

how i spent the 1st day of my holiday...

hmm...let's start off with the time i woke up...11.27am.....hohoho! i don't know how i managed to sleep that much~ anyway, i took bath, breakfast, dressed up and even watch ugly betty before going out...

my plan for the day is to settle my tuition fee as well as my rental for the next 4 months....yup, i paid in cash...which means i was carrying a hell lot of money while wondering on the street...after paying the fees and rental, i got my accesscard replaced and it costs me 10 pounds....shesshh! i'll show you guys how the 10-pound-card looked like and you tell me if it's worth 10 pounds...okay, after settling these stuffs, i went shopping....i bought some clay mask (the skin on my face is peeling off, possibly due to dry weather) and a buffer sponge...(don't really know i am going to use it since i am so lazy)....then, i bought some kebabs (eat while loitering around the mall)....then i walked all the way to chinatown and bought some ingredients to make 'muaci' and 'loh mai chee' (a chinese pastry -filled with peanuts and covered with glutinous flour)....i planned to make cheesecake...but since i missed chinese food, i might as well make chinese pastry...i even planned to stuff the fillings with red bean paste (but i'll have to buy red bean and make it into a paste myself)...anyway, i'll get some red bean soon...

i shopped from 1pm till 5.30pm non-stop...i even bought something called eccles...it's filled with raisins (yuck)...i just took a bite and left it in da kitchen...i hate raisins... i even bought 'penguin' milk chocolate biscuits..yum-yum....and strawberries, belgian chocolate muffins, tomatoes, onions, cabbage, chicken strips and a dozen yoghurt pots....hehe! it was torturing to carry all those stuffs.....i regret instantly after buying them....

after all those wondering around the whole liverpool, i still cant manage to get a boot...damn!

bad news: i bumped into those guys from the lab prac....damn! i didn't notice them cause i was too occupied with shopping thoughts and suddenly, i felt a bunch of static people staring at me....so i just smiled and hurried away....

while i was loitering around today, i noticed that a lot of people looked at me...maybe because i am chinese? but there are lots of chinese around...weird...i thought there is something on my face and i simply entered the nearest cosmetic shop and look for a mirror...(yea, i know, a girl is supposed to have a mirror in her bag...i am an exception aka special..erm.. okay, i admit, a failure...hahha! who cares! ) but i didn't notice anything wrong with my face...perhaps i am over sensitive? we'll see if it happens again....

the 10-pound-card (front view)

the 10-pound-card (back view)

the buffer and clay mask i bought

the eccles

my muaci & loh mai chee ingredients

my xmas + end of semester gathering

ahem...today, i had my last presentation for this semester...yay~ hooray.... so, i went to celebrate the end of first semester with a few of my coursemates...yea, only the chosen ones...hhahahha! kidding....umm...maybe i should put it this way..'for those who clicked'.....there's no point forcing yourselves to eat with those you cant even hold a conversation for 1 minute, right? if we are going, we have to go to a halal restaurant...which means all those fancy italian, japanese or even McD and KFC will be banished...(anyway, i am not going to KFC or McD) hahhaha!

so, we went to a japanese restaurant named 'wagamama'.....it was great....and i can definitely feel myself putting on weight...damn! i had a chocolate fudge cake for dessert...and the weird thing about the cake is that the chocolate syrup is made of wasabi....yea...but it was really really nice....i think it tastes more like peppermint though..ahhahha! and the other dessert is white-chocolate-ginger-cheesecake....weird huh? but it tastes AWESOME....i will be visiting that restaurant some time soon...hehe! i'll gather a troop and attack the restaurant...i ordered a fruit juice (orange, apple and passionfruit blended)...it was a perfect match with the dessert and the main course...wuu~ i even ordered an extra green tea..hhaha! we ate for 2++ hours...hhaha! and i went shopping after that....i bought a lot of stuffs...but i am kinda lazy to mention about it...nothing special...i am just thinking about another dinner tomorrow...i feel like rejecting it since i had enough of fancy food these few days....i wanted to go plain for a few days...we'll see how it turns out tomorrow...

and a friend of mine arrived london today and has been calling me eversince...i am not sure if he will be coming to liverpool to pay me a visit...i hope not...since i am kinda busy...argh...headache...

BAD NEWS: i lost my accesscard today....i have to pay 10pounds for a replacement...damn! stoopid card...and clumsy me! argh!

chocolate fudge cake with wasabi and chocolate fudge filling ~ with dark chocolate wasabi sauce and vanilla pod ice-cream...yum yum^^

white chocolate and stem ginger cheesecake with chilli toffee ginger sauce^^ (weird ingredients but superb taste)

my passionfruit+apple+orange fresh juice....looked ugly, but tastes GREAT^^

chicken katsu curry...yum yum...(tastes great & healthy too)

where i shopped...

santa clausessss....

yesterday (sunday) my flatmates joined an event called 'santa dash'....they forced me to take part in the race, but i am so lazy, i ended up being the supporter...hahhahha! hey, only 3 of them joined the race, okie? hhaha! at least i woke up early to support them~~ after tagging along for 5km (i guess), i went off shopping~ i haven't got my boots yet...(size 5 is too common and is always the one out of stock)....

then, we had a christmas dinner....i keep on declining to join....however, they said 'hey, we bought your share, so you must be back for the dinner, kay? see ya later~"

so, i ended up joining the dinner...when i reached the residence hall, i knew why i must attend the dinner....the guy (from next door), is the one doing the cooking (in my flat).....but i must admit, his cooking is GREAT~

he prepared: roast turkey, stuffing balls, roast potatoes, salad (broccoli, carrots, corn, cabbage), gammon with honey glaze, mashed potatoes and he even prepared the gravy himself...scary huh? as for the dessert, he bought triple chocolate indulgence gateau...there are also red & white wines (which i didn't even take a sip)...too bad, i didn't take any pictures...i was busy eating...hhahah! after dinner, he moved his plasma tv to our living hall and asked us to watch a few movies...(i have a presentation the next morning, but i feel bad to just eat and clean without having a proper conversation)...so i ended up watching movie till 1am with all of them....

bad news: i ate too much, i cant sleep until it was 5am....i keep declining, he keep giving me second helping, third helping....argh...

the worst thing is: characters in da movie named : connie and the other is his name...though i know what it means, but i pretend not to realise it...which is a smart thing....yay~ and i got away with playing dumb.... muahhahah!

the best thing: i finally get to see snow....(there was once i was caught in hail, it wasn't a good one..it was painful)...

Snow accumulated on the car~

below are the pictures of santa dash and my shopping reward:

5-stories-tall-real-xmas-tree

Liverpool One...the largest shopping complex in liverpool...really nice..

Liverpool One ( a small part of it)

santasss

Santa Dash....

so many santasssss......

yea, i tried the kangaroo & wild boar...muahhahahha! (i went twice on separate days)

three pound for a burger...hahha~

muahhahaha! i only managed to get myself scarves (reason: no sizes required..muahhahah)....the red one belonged to my sister..she gave it to me before i came here...

i must get a pair of boots ASAP...

my housemate's bday..

one of my housemates turn 20 yesterday and i am forced to celebrate with them...i planned to reject their invitation....i had to go for practical in the morning and i don't want to go clubbing or drinking...i just want to rest well and prepare for my battle with some of the lazy group members....argh...anyway, since i bought her gift, i might as well join the celebration and leave early...i didn't go clubbing, just went for a few drinks...and it was really really nice...i love that drink...it's called fruili...

next wednesday, i am going to try chocolate alcohol and honey beer...my friend invited me to try it out...so i might be going if i am free....hehe!

i will be having 2 presentations next week ( monday and tuesday)...again...argh....and i'll be having a christmas dinner with my coursemates probably on monday night...so, it'll be a busy week for me...i am kinda worried bout the presentations...the lecturers are putting too much pressure on me...they keep telling others to take me as their role model...and i had been receiving lots of sarcastic comments eversince...sigh...i'll learn to ignore them...

this is me with my drink...(i drank 3 pints of fruilis)

after 3 pints, i turned red...(and even got rashes on my hands & back)

finally....free from responsibilities...

Hooraayyy! I am free....at last.....i managed to get through the week...ermm...not really a good one...two of my group mates didn't turn up during the last day of the practical....i didn't tell the lecturers about it and i think other group mates are kinda mad about it...it's really not my style to report stuffs like this to the lecturers...but they should have emailed, texted or even call to inform me that they are not coming...sigh... whatever....i won't help them when it comes to writing a lab report....since they are the ones who didn't turn up, i guess i should let them learn a lesson....hahaha!

Dr. H is very pleased with the results we obtained! He said that it was the best ever...the seniors failed to produce it last year and we did it~ yay! i am so happy...maybe i am a good leader after all...hohoho! (kidding...it's my GOOD LUCK) muahahhaha!

below are a few photos taken during the last day of the practical...

this is the proof of methylenomycin A, B and Actinorhodin production..muahahha!

2 groupmates missing, but we can still work efficiently (multitasking too! taking pics & calculating stuff)

some coursemates from production team...i think we looked like we are preparing to go for scuba diving...i hate the goggles...looked weird and it's really heavy....

i love this pic..

Four gossipers...

i am back...

today is the first day i attend my one-week-laboratory work....where i have to produce antibiotics..... the class is divided into two groups....one is purification and the other is response-something group...(obviously, i am spacing out during the lecture...so i didn't know it)...hahhaha!

then, the lecturer said he wanted a leader in each group...one of the guys volunteered to be the leader for purification group....suddenly, this lecturer called out my name..(as told by my friends coz i was spacing out....)

'connie, do you mind becoming the leader?'......and i was still spacing out at that moment, so i didn't reply.... so, he continued.."connie, you looked shocked"......and suddenly, i heard my name and i looked at him with lotsa question marks on my face...my fren beside me told me to nod my head....since i do not know anything so i followed what she said...

Glyn looked pleased and said 'that's settled it..you'll be the leader for this group'

so, i am now the group leader which i don't even know what's the name of the group...darn! and throughout this whole day, i heard them saying 'you are the leader now'....for like a thousand times......and it was often not in a good intonation...anyway...i think i am getting used to it.... my 3 other close pals told me that it was really lucky that i am appointed as the leader as our class rep (one of the indians) wanted to volunteer herself....they do not want her as the leader anymore since she did nothing but throwing questions at us.....

and hell, yea, i am the one doing project for her as well as selecting genes, primers, & restriction enzymes for her! i am the one to taught her how to use RASMOL software, writing lab report, extract info from bioinformatics....and she still want to become a leader? gosh! i am not saying i am better than her.....but....i cant be that bad, can i?

hmm...maybe Glyn think that i talked a lot, so i should keep on talking? hhaha!

anyway, i'll definitely try be a good leader...and i proved myself today...sigh...and we had a 2 hours break...and supposed to be back by 2pm.....3 people from my group were late for 15 minutes..(including the one who wanted to volunteer herself to be the leader)....and i ended up calling each of them to ask them to rush here ASAP...argh....the supervisor told me to make sure my groupmates won't be late for tomorrow's practical...argh...i think 3 of them did it on purpose....i had reminded them a few times before the break....and they were still late for 15 minutes?......i never wanted to be a leader, coz i rather be slacking off without responsibility over others....

....whatever....hopefully everything will be fine for this whole week...

freezing....

today, it was ZERO degree for the whole day and it was foggy....it was freezingly cold and the heater is useless... here is some pictures...taken around 1pm...

hehehe! from this picture, i can only think of one thing.....CHRISTMAS is here!!!! i cant wait for christmas~~ ermm...by the way, i am not christian...hahhah! just someone trying to have fun and enjoy the atmosphere~ i guess it'll be snowing again tonight...

erm...by the way, my coursemates are still calling me...i wonder why they cant text me instead of calling since i hadn't been answering any calls...see? i have the willpower of not picking up calls...and i didn't even sign in for msn...muahahhahahha! i guess i need to be fair to everyone, so i didn't pick up their calls, so i shouldn't be chatting around either...i will continue to MIA for a few days...to spend some time alone...with no one yapping...it felt so good to take things easily and it just seemed like i am the one controlling my own time...rather than being dragged around doing stuffs for other people....

blessing or headache?

i had just received an email from my Professor stating that there will be a preliminary interview for placement during May....i had no idea if the interviewer (s) is/are from different companies or our own lecturers....

just when i dont have the mood for talking, i need to go for an interview...hahha! just my luck.... this may just be the message telling me that i should stick to being my old-self....the chatterbox who never stop talking nonsense...

hmm....though i had no idea about the interview, i dont seem to be nervous at all....i wonder why....i am already in the holiday mood i guess! hahahha! i cant wait for christmas~ everyone is asking me out~ yay! Cant wait for christmas celebration~ hahahhah!

me, myself, & i.....

these days, i just dont feel like chatting with anyone (either msn or face to face)...yea...and i dont know why...i even silent both my hps and not picking up any calls and returning any smses....i dont know why, dont ask me...

i didnt blog yesterday, neither pick up calls nor attended any classes.... wow...talk about being anti-social...hhahah! even today, my mood is still the same...at least i blogged...hahahha! i did nothing...i stayed in my room for two days...erm... looking out the window....but at least i did chat with my housemates for a while and did some cooking and stuff... i feel like a 60 years old, grumpy old lady stuck in a 23 years old's body....hhahahha!

anyway, my coursemates had been calling me (i dont know for what god damn reasons).... make a guess? the assignment due next friday....this is the worse assignment of all...probably due to lotsa research gathering, understanding, software utilising and of course, how to interprete the data (this is not as easy as it sounded)...the data is about all the atoms and their positions in the protein and you'll have to know which atom bonded will give you the catalytic sites, subsites as well as providing stability and correct conformation of the structure...

i will DEFINITELY REJECT helping them this time...i am sorry, but i really cant help you guys...BECAUSE:
1. everyone is doing different protein
2. it's IMPOSSIBLE for me to read all the materials and understand their protein
3. it's IMPOSSIBLE to read more than 50 journals for each protein within a few days
4. there are 7 coursemates ringing me for this
5. 7 coursemates + myself multiplies by at least 50 journals =400 journals minimum

see the above calculation? a minimum of 400 journals to read? impossible to help...i am sorry, but this time, i cant be SAVIOUR anymore...you guys gotta move your ass and stop being so lazy... i cant spoon feed you guys all the time...i think i had done more than enough for the past few assignments and i am very tired DUE to their laziness...

YAY! at last!! i learnt to say NO! but....i didnt actually said that YET...i had been avoiding their calls only...hahahhaha! hopefully nothing happens on monday...PLEASE have MERCY on me...i am just another normal human being....i am going to pray real hard starting from today till next friday....PLEASE....dont ask me questions regarding assignments...i feel bad not to answer or teach, so i rather they dont ask me...just in case i give in and agreed to teach them...

ALL of you MUST pray for me!!! ALL!!

being FFKed

I had been FFKed (Fong Fei Kei aka being let go an aeroplane- literal translation from cantonese).....by who? my partner whom is supposed to be presenting some DNA sequencing topic with me! damn!

basically, this 'thing' did nothing! i prepared the whole damn slides and he didn't turn up for the presentation! last week, i reconfirmed with him about his attendance for this presentation! he was supposed to meet me up on monday and share some research we had done! this damn damn damn 'thing' didnt even reply my email, my sms and calls! he better de dead, or i'll make his life suffer a hell more than mine! argh!!!! anyway, i had to make up an excuse for him on why he didnt turn up for the presentation! (i didnt know what happen until now).....

From this lesson, i learned that we should be prepared for the worst...i was so damn busy with my assignments, he didnt even manage to get his ass here for a presentation?! argh!

i guess i am so mad due to another reason..which makes me double mad! know what? i was in the IT room to print out my proposal thingy and this nigerian guy suddenly just put his hand behind my back and when i turn, his face was like just an INCH away...no, no, correction, should be a centimeter away! Thanks to my pancaked-face (not as protruding as caucasians), we didnt make any contact! damn! i hate guys like this! i didnt even know him!!!!! he is just a hi-bye friend nothing else...i was so busy and he kept on yapping beside me...by that time, i was kinda furious and i said 'look, i am very busy, can we talk some other time? i need to turn in this proposal like in 10 minutes...sorry, catch up with ya later'......

i know i sounded harsh, but i am really in a hurry! and u know what's the best part?? he return after 2mins (i think) and said 'can you teach me about gene mapping?'

yea, i know what you guys are thinking.....what the heck! i just said i am busy! then i said 'i can teach you later, but not now, i am very busy'.....then, he returned to his computer and after what seems like another 2 mins to me, he returned again 'can i borrow your calculator?'

Damn! at that point, i really wanted to ask him to shut the *tut* up! BUT, i managed to control my anger and fished out my calculator from my bag....and even passed it to him with a smile...argh!

not to mention, when i attended the lecture, he kept on asking 'connie, are you okay?', 'are you alright?' , 'what is that you have to pass up?' bla bla bla....he just keep on yapping.....and i was like 5 seats AWAY from him with his friend in between us...yea, initially, it was like 8 seats in between us....but two noobies forced me to move over....

and plus, today...i went to hand in one of my proposal and my tutor was really super-duper pleased with it...he kept on praising the porposal and my another coursemate, (both of us under the same tutor) and she was annoyed...my tutor turned to her and say 'yours was good, but there are still rooms for improvement'...

then, when we left the room, she snatched my proposal and ask 'can i read it?'.....i was like...you robbed me and you are asking if you can take it? weird? then, in the lecture, she complained to her pals that our tutor keep on praising my stuff and didnt really talked about hers...then she complained and complained and complained....

then, her BFF, came over to me and said 'you did very well, didnt you? i heard..bla-bla-bla'
i really wanted to tell everyone to shut the *tut* up!! ....i guess that's why i am so mad today....

anyway, everything is over....and i can just hope for a better tomorrow....

something to be shared...

hmmm...human health state is getting worse nowadays...due to DNA mutations, tumour growths are induced....hopefully some anti tumour protein can be generated to cure cancer...and that would be a miracle...for your information, a potent cytotoxin known as BS-RNase had been developed and it's currently undergoing clinical trial (phase 1 & 2)to CURE cancer....however, it causes some side effects....(eg: degeneration of testicular tissues, affect embryonic growth as well as the maturation of oocyte)....

so, here come my research...recently, i had found out that a potential cytotoxin, lactoribonuclease, had been isolated. It has similar molecular weight and N-terminal amino acid protein as BP-RNase....So, the experiment i'll design is to engineer the protein into dimer, trimer and possibly tetramer form...(rational? BS-RNase (dimer) active, but non-specific cytotoxin, BP-RNase (monomer) lower cytotoxin activity, but more specific).....so, i'll just engineer the protein structure and test its activity....

i can only propose this research, but not to conduct it due to Human Tissue Act and i am not yet a biotechnologist...MOREOVER, i had tonnes of assignments waiting for me...

currently, i am also doing research on production of antibodies from plants and animals (eg: anti-S, insulin, hepatits B)...it's all possible~~

ps: i am actually praying that my coursemates wont be calling me up in the middle of the night again....i really need some time off!!

miracles......indeed

okay, lets start off with happy stuffs...

Today, it was raining cats and dogs in the morning, which makes it freezingly COLD! Anyway, i managed to drag myself out of the bed and bath...One of my housemates invited her twin brothers to stay for the weekend...Since I was quite busy, i didnt have the time to talk to them...So, i went out after bathing to buy some chocolates (some = 12 bars)....Since they are so cute (and the fact that i feel bad for ignoring their existence for the past 2 days), i gave them my chocolates~ nice of me? yea.....i gave each of them 4 bars with different flavours...and i am left with 4 bars....here comes the bad news.....

i FINISHED the 4 bars in a day....which made me saturated with chocolates right now and i think i really need to QUIT chocolates....i had been saying this for a long time, but i didnt really take any action....hm...i had been doing some observation on myself, and i found that i am too obsessed with chocolates that i had been eating chocolates everyday!! seriously, i need to quit..argh! anyway, toss this thing aside...

i finished my assignments~ HOWEVER, there are a few adjustments to make (final touch ups)... and i am quite satisfied with it...i managed to design an experiment for potential anti tumour protein....but i still need to come up with details though...roughly, i know what i am doing, but i need to search for more sources so that i know how to alter the protein...kinda tough...but i must do it! who knows i can create miracles for those who need them? after all, i had been blessed with a lot of miracles...and i hope i can give others miracles too....but too bad, what i did will only be a proposal as i am not a PhD student...

needed a break...

i had been battling with my assignments nonstop while my coursemates had been busy throwing questions at me....kinda headache with them calling me at the middle of the night (around 1am) just to ask some questions....i am wondering, why cant they start other assignments and call me at decent hour instead? that's kinda inconsiderate, right?

anyway, i had been doing assignments for more the 7 hours straight today! but of course, with my life-sustaining source with me all the time (chocolates)....i had been doing this since thursday and managed to finish 2 assignments...anyway, i planned to go for shopping spree after being tortured like this....i need to restock my chocolates....(main purpose)...

i kept dreaming about home and both my grandpas! It has been a few days and i had been dreaming of them in different scenarios, of course...hahhaha! i guess i was too tired for the last few days...and not to mention a bit homesick due to some inconsiderate people who keep on talking about Malaysia food.....hmmppphh!!! anyway, the WESTERN food are nice too~ i wont let you guys keep on tempting me like this!!

yesterday, a long lost friend contacted me so suddenly that i am shocked to see him msn me~ anyway, i wish him best of luck in everything.....

better continue on my assignments... let's just pray that i can finish it ASAP~~

yikes!

i know i shouldn't be blogging since i had so much assignments due on monday...but i have to release the anger in me before starting my work! (yea, that's right, ANGER, not STRESS).....i am not stress by the amount of courseworks...but, rather, being driven to madness by my coursemates...

It should have been a GREAT day tomorrow because I had NO class! yay!! hoorrayyy!!!

BUT, the sad news is that I need to head off to LIBRARY to help my coursemates with their courseworks...I haven't even touch anything yet...and they are asking me to go library to teach them how to analyse results from the experiment we had done the other day...if my lab partner ask me to go, i think i SHOULD go since both of us will be using the same results...but no plagarism...or else, we'll be downgraded by a CLASS! imagine!! not a few marks! Anyway, almost all my coursemates asked me to go and teach them...i felt a bit weird, as i won't be using the same results as theirs...MOREOVER, my lab partner complained about having them around...i am stuck in between...my lab partner asked me to meet her up ONLY...not them.. although she knew they are all dragging me to the library tomorrow...i don't know how to sort things out right now...so, i guess i'll just leave it like that and go with the flow....

The amount of time i had been to the library for this month is practically more than the amount of time i had been to the library for the past 20++years of my life! Talk about pathetic....BUT one thing i love about this library is that YOU can bring FOOD, SNACKS, & DRINKS and there is even a cafe inside the library itself!

Since i am chocoholic, the only thing keep me surviving inside the library is HOT CHOCOLATE and CHOCOLATES....yea....hahhah!

hmm..and there's a bad news....i don't know where this Nigerian guy from the Uni got my number, and he had smsed and called me...(obviously, i didn't pick up his call, that's why he smsed)....i hate people giving out my numbers before notifying me...damn! another one for me to avoid...sounds a bit anti-social, but i rather be anti-social than dragging myself to another shitty situation where thousands of 'lalats' buzzed around me~

whew! feel a lot better now.....so i better start my assignments now...

uneasiness....

it seems like more and more troubles will be stimulated....Today, I had a lecture from the external examiner who judged our presentation last week....the moment he saw me, he recognised me right away as one of the student who presented last week... all the while in his lecture, he kept mentioning about the presentation since the lecture he taught was connected to what some of us had presented....

Halfway through his lecture, he gave a 30mins break....i was happy as i really needed a break (to listen to my mp3)......but he just sat directly opposite of me and asked 'you were one of the presenter and you presented about plantibodies, right? It made some impacts and i can remember your presentation well...it was stunning and brilliant...' (i didn't really think it was that good...coz any of TARCians would have done better....

Then, he started discussing everything I think about biotechnology (as if I am an expert who obtained PhD).....he discussed all sorts of issues with me and what he did to support GMP....in the class, there are also BSc students as well as my coursemates...they listened as both of us discussed about the issues and how to genetically modified the plants....i am lucky that i knew some theories and were able to talk to him about it... after the resuming of the lecture, he asked me a few questions while lecturing....as if to ask for my confirmation on the point...i felt awkward...he is the lecturer, right? but he is a really great professor as he really explain his stuff well....

the real battle begin after the class.......EVERYONE was like...'hey, he remembered only your presentation!', 'sounds like he is going to take you as a PhD student', 'hey, our group project will be single-handed by you', 'the presentation for next week, whom you gonna team up with?'

i dont know how to answer any of the questions....since i am the late comer for the course, i had to choose which group i wanted to join for the group presentation next week... now, i really dont know how to choose...as i dont want to hurt anyone's feeling and i had been thinking of random drawing of group...but it would be like...a bit weird and too self-centered? i am confused...tomorrow i have to face this thing again...they'll definitely force me to choose...

and there is a girl, she had been clinging on to me for everything! as lab partners for every subject!! the bad thing is that....i had to teach her the basic of micropipetting....she even asked me to go to her apartment to do da prac reports with her....it's killing me....

now that everyone knows i taught another coursemate at the library the other day, everyone is asking me to meet them at the library!!!! i felt like....being forcibly dragged into this shitty situation and i really wanted to say ' I HATE LIBRARY'.....help.....i am suffocating here....argh!! i love to collect books, but i just cant stand library...i dont know why, dont ask....

is it a wrong decision to continue master? i am wondering....but who cares! i had chosen this path, and i will finish what i had started! i will graduate!!!

Gambateh!!!! hopefully my luck don't give up on me before the programme finishes...hahha! AND BELOW ARE MY PILLARS OF STRENGTH...who guide, protect, care, nurture, and most of all, shower me with never-ending hugs, kisses, love and happiness all these years...Love you guys...a lot..

For you, i'll definitely make it through the rain....

Everytime i felt lost, i just need to look at you guys, and i will definitely find my way HOME...

tired, exhausted..but cant sleep

it's 3.15am in the morning....and i had just arrived my residence hall....i am so tired...but i just cant sleep...hmmm....headache...i think i should treat myself better tomorrow by buying more chocolates...hahhaa!

yea, call me chocoholic~~ i am used to it...hhahaha!

unbelievable.....it's a miracle...

All i can say is....UNBELIEVABLE....yea, it is... guess where am i blogging in the middle of the night? I am in the LEARNING RESOURCE CENTER aka LIBRARY....sounds impossible? yea...it does sound impossible to me...i cant believe i am in the library blogging!

Of course, i won't step into the library unless i am forced to do so...hahhaha! yea, i am here waiting for one of my coursemates...She said she wana meet me at 8pm at the library...but she changed her mind and postponed it to 10pm....so, just in case she might be waiting, i came here at 9.45pm....now, it's 11pm and she hasn't even called me.....and i am here waiting for her...i called her, but unanswered...luckily, i bought some chocolates with me (my life sustaining resources....as well as the only thing that's keeping me from falling asleep)....argh!

she wanted me to teach her how to use a programme...some primer designing programme.... umm... actually, i don't know how to use it either...but after battling for a few hours, i figured out how to do it....i didn't planned to learn this early...as i am kinda busy with other stuffs....since she asked for my help, i might as well learn it and teach her...whew....headache...

hmm...forgot to explain what is this programme about....i am supposed to design 3 primer which can locate the gene of interest (IL3 - interleukin)...then, i am supposed to design a restriction enzyme which cleave the gene at a specific site...of course, without cleaving my SNP...and this retriction site must cut only once as we do not wish to cut the gene into several fragments...zzzZZZZ

i am dozing off...i don't feel like explaining anymore....tired...anyway....this thing remind me of Leong....B*tchy Leong....(a guy lecturer back in TARC)....hahhaha! Von and Jojo hate him a lot, i tink....hahhaha! that's how he got his nick...

i am still waiting for my fren...she better come....or else...i will be really pissed off.....so pissed off that i'll buy 1kg of chocolates to eat...and finish it in 4 hours accompanied by watchin animation~

backstabbers....

it has been quite sometime since i last encounter backstabbers...hhaha! okay...so, continue from tuesday.....i got my presentation marks on monday, awarded best presenter...end of story...

tuesday...i went to meet my personal tutor for my proposal thingy around 12pm... then, i had a presentation at 2pm...after meeting my professor, i went to the IT room to finish my presentation slides...yea, i know i am kinda toooo last minute for that....since i am already in the IT room, i might as well sign in my messenger and chatted with my sisters and friends....(i am multitasking - doing presentation slides as well as chattin' )....suddenly, two of my coursemates (F & Z) stood behind me and one of them said..

"I can't believe the one who did last minute slides and preparation being the topper!"

"Yea, like, we prepared so much earlier than you did. You are always on MSN and i can't believe it. We are going for a practise right now. So, bye."

What the HECK? I can definitely feel the sarcastism in their intonation!! I admit that i did everything last minute but what does it have to do with them? I didnt plan to tell them my marks for presentation....but F just stand behind me while i am reading my email and saw the marks...she asked for confirmation right in front of everyone....i dont mean to announce it...but she announced it to every single soul in the room!!! i dont mind my marks being announced, but i can she at least feel for those getting a lower marks? damn her!

Not enough with the criticism, those two went to see one of the examiners for the presentation and said that they are not satisfied with the marks! I overheard them saying "I think i did so much better than that, and the marks given is too low for me! Or i can do another presentation again next tuesday and remark it for me.."

Gosh! I am dealing with high school stuffs! HELLO??? we are doing masters programme right now.....Shouldn't both of them at least be less competitve and MOVE ON? argh!!! Luckily i had other coursemates who don't seemed to mind about the marks...i really hated this stuff a lot!!!

but seriously, these few days, i kept receiving comments like "you are the topper", "you studied everyday, right?", "First class student, eh?"......etc..

i am so sick of these comments...what did i do? i did nothing!!!! I really hate it when people think that i am a topper or whatever....and these few days, whenever there are paired work, everyone is very eager to join me...come on!!! I am really sick of this....also, if there are any question, they ask me....i really don't know about anything...and yet, they think that i am a superhuman??

I just hope that these comments will fade ASAP! i don't want to deal with this kiddy situation anymore....come on, GROW UP! Learn to acknowledge, congratulate and be happy for others achievement instead of being so sarcastic!

lucky me...but....

i am so lucky today^^ i am awarded the best presenter! i am so happy and i cant be happier...hhahaha! however, a part of me is very unhappy....i hoped that the lecturers had not announced it in front of everyone...i hoped that they can tell me personally to save the embarassment....argh! and the external examiner shouldn't have complimented me in front of all the coursemates....i dont know where to hide myself....at that moment, i just felt like digging a hole and hide....it's nothing shameful, but considering the feelings of other coursemates, i think they shouldn't had complimented like that...

all my coursemates complimented and congratulated me....but i just dont feel so good....i didnt put in as much effort as they did, yet.....this happens....argh! kinda feel like not worth for the compliments.....

something troubled me though....i am the one being bombarded with the most questions! well, i wonder why the one being bombarded with tonnes of questions being the best presenter? i just felt like being ambushed by the lecturers equipped with AK-47...worst still, rocket launchers.....argh! i am so lucky that i had been trained by Dr. Banu....she equipped me with bullet-proof vest as well as reflector-shield which repels almost any ammunition from all sorts of weapons....

opps...it sounded more like a war than a presentation huh? the truth is, IT IS A WAR!

Tomorrow, i think i'll be bombarded with more questions since they saw my presentation today...i am kinda worried that they might have higher expectations on me for tomorrow...argh!!! gonna prepare the slides after bloggin'

pray for me!!!

some people just dont understand...

wow...i cant imagine how some people just dont get it.....but i admire their courage and will power....

i dont know how to tell this story...but basically, it's like this....

A and B was in a long distance relationship....A and B broke up....B wanted A back, but due to some problems, A refused to get back together but willing to stay as friends...but now, B wanted more....B is planning to board a plane and reconcile the relationship with A.....i hope A can reconsider their relationship and everything will be fine... i pitied B, but after what B has done, i doubt if there will be any chance of reconciling....

anyway, all the best to this couple...ex-couple or future-to-be-couple...

these stuffs are really troublesome...i am appreciating single life....less stuffs to worry about^^ talk about my own stuff....tomorrow, i'll be presenting Plantibodies...i am not sure if i got it on the right track...but it seemed okay for me....thanks to a friend who gave me some rough ideas on how the degree presentation will be...i am at least make sure my stuffs are well above degree level...after all, it should be harder compare to degree level...

i better stop blogging and get some proper rest before my presentation tomorrow...i dont know why i am not worried at all...i should be worried....i had just done the slides...no rehearsal, no double check....basically, i think it is a piece of sh*tty presentation....let's see if i will be bombarded with tonnes of questions....praying for the professors to be kind....hm...almost forgotten...there will be an external examiner on the spot...damn...god bless me^^

attention to food lovers^^

hey! suddenly feel like blogging about food...hohoho! trying to make everyone drool over my blog...yea, coz i know i cant make you all drool over my pictures, so i might as well make you all drool over the food!!! muahahaha! i am EVIL...and i know that....carefully observe the food below^^

escargots...of course..France...

pepperoni pizza from Italy...

Seafood pasta...Italy

Lagsanae....italy


tong fen, Paris

Salmon fish with lobster sauce..Paris

Fruit dessert, Rome

Mixed Grill, Vatican City..

Seafood Rice, Rome

Chef's Specialty Lamb Chop, Paris

Grill Fish, Venice

Forgotten da name...Venice

Piadina, Venice

McD, Italy

Genovase, Venice

Tiramisu, Vatican city

Chocolate cake, Vatican city

Fungae Pizza, Italy

Bacon Pizza? Italy...hahha!

venice specialty

Love of my life, Gelato^^ italy

My love.....more Gelato^^

More Gelato^^ i love it!!!!! you guys must try this out in italy...i fell in love because of the gelato...

ONE MORE IMPORTANT THING....you MUST try DALLOYAU...in Paris...MUST!!! i will definitely be going back to Paris because of DALLOYAU....i love it...i really love it!! anyone wana join me for eating?? i seriously recommend dalloyau...the pastries are fabulous...with 200 years of history, who can beat you? i love DALLOYAU! but seriously, after eating it...your 'lo yau' will be very 'dai'.....that's why it's named 'dai lo yau' - translate into cantonese..you'll know what i am saying...hahhaha! kidding ler...but i'll still love it...hahhaha!

PS: there are still some food that i missed out...i dont want to post up too much...i am droolin' hahhahha! i dont want to flood the whole Liverpool...hahhaha!