Thursday, 30 April 2009

freakin' pissed OFF!

okay....seriously, i am quite pleased when i almost finished that damn assignment last night...but you know what? i just FEEL LIKE CHANGING MY MIND ABOUT NOT COMPLAINING THEM....

I WANT TO FILE A FREAKIN' COMPLAIN AS THICK AS THE DICTIONARY ABOUT THOSE RETARDS!

okay, you guys help me to make this decision....i emailed everyone the finalised assignement around 5am in the morning and none of those freaks replied my email or give me any feedback EVEN UNTIL NOW!

Okay, i can forgive them for not replying as i obviously think they are mentally retarded to even be able to read anything...BUT...

ONE OF THE RETARDS ACTUALLY WOKE UP 8AM IN THE MORNING AND HELP ANOTHER GROUP DOING THE SAME GOD DAMN ASSIGNMENT!

I am so PISSED OFF! She went to the university to HELP another group when she cant even FUCKING do her part of the work! i don't mind doing it when the retards dont know how to do it! but she can help other groups doing the same thing? COME ON!

THIS IS SERIOUSLY PISSING ME OFF! THIS BITCH IS HELPING THAT PERSON SIMPLY BECAUSE THE OTHER PERSON WHO ASKED FOR HER HELP IS A GUY!

Come ON!!!!! SHE CANT BE THAT DESPERATE, CAN SHE?!

i am officially pissed off and i cant be arse with the thing anymore! i am not going to do the table of content and even numbering the pages...they can all go to hell along with the assignment! i dont CARE!!!!

RETARD + SLUT = SLUTARD!!!!!!

4.46am...

i created miracle after non-stop swearing in my previous blog...i actually managed to finished the group thing as mentioned by celine dion's song...

~~~*** ALL BY MYSELF***~~~~

okay, only the title...not the meaning of the entire song.... I am proud of myself...I did one unbelievable thing...i actually emailed 3 of them and give them a piece of my mind! i mentioned their names one by one and saying what crap they gave me....i asked them to read the entire group thing and find which part is actually their work....i even mentioned about how UNFAIR it was and now IRRESPONSIBLE of them....

i am not going to complain to lecturer as i just wana scold those retards....

Cheers, connie...you did a great job...not only you stand up for yourself this time, you actually managed to finish mission impossible....MI4....starring connie and Tom Cruise...

Ps: i still have another assignment due on the same day...gotta start it now!

bad day....

what can be worse than dying from swine flu? I can answer this question without a second thought..

Dying from reading CRAPPY emails sent by barbarians....

I actually CRIED when i read those emails....we are supposed to hand up 2 assignments on this friday....and i am still awake...trying to compile everything and re-type and not to mention trying to understand their 'human' english.....with microsoft words, they can still have typo errors (not some...but the whole damn paragraph...with the entire sentence appearing to be a phrase without a starting point and you dont know where to put a fullstop..)

Can you guys imagine? I am really having a hard time...and thanks to three person appearing at the right time on msn....My beloved kazak (regina), kam-kam and haur, someone who seldom online! I am forever indebt as they actually listen to my complains...particularly kazak! She actually listened to my crying!! i can't speak because this thing is really causing me so much pressure...Kam-kam actually made cute faces on webcam! (i didnt turn on my webcam as i am too ugly at that moment)

I rather be doing the whole thing than letting them giving me crappy emails and saying as if they had done the thing! they COPY and PASTED the whole thing and send it to me...that's why there are no fullstop...coz they copy a part of the sentence and jumble it up, mixing it with some other sentence...

GOD, WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS PUNISHMENT? DID I KILL THEIR WHOLE ENTIRE CLAN IN THEIR PAST LIVES? AND THAT IS WHY I AM HAVING THIS KARMA THINGY?

I actually swore out loud when i read the emails....and one of my housemates was in my room and she was SHOCKED! she said she has never heard me swearing before and that is the first time i looked angry! she said she can never imagine me being angry coz i am always smiling as if nothing can actually wipe off that smile off my goofy face... ( my swearing : what the FUCK is this? this is a piece of SHIT!)

Yep...that's the only thing swore...and this is actually my first time saying FUCK out loud...And this is the first time i used this word without sensoring it in my blog...even in my msn, i wrote : FUCK OFFFFFFFF!

Now you guys can actually imagine how awfully pissed off i am...i cant be bothered anymore...i thought of taking FM's advice....like making this whole thing as if it is my own thing and dont let myself regret....but i cant do it...i just cant! You guys cant imagine what the crap i need to deal with...can you imagine that you asked someone to fill in the blanks and they cant even fill it in? they ended up copy and pasting some shit for you? and i said to one of the barbarians : can you please follow the sub headings given in the example and send it to me?

here comes the best reply of the YEAR 2009:

"what's a sub heading?"

*silence* followed by drop-dead on the floor.....


Didnt i just say follow the example? if you dont know what's a subheading, at least you will understand what is a god damn EXAMPLE isnt it? why cant they fill in the blank? how come they DONT know how to FILL IN THE FUCKING BLANK?

okay, mum, i know i am swearing awfully lot...but this is the first and the last time (given that i dont have to deal with barbarians anymore in my life).....


Lastly, i would like to apologise for making this blog so rude...I am really sorry....as for the barbarians, i am sorry that i actually swore when i received your emails...but you guys should be grateful that you didnt know bout it...

Finally, i feel sorry for myself...why do i have to give a damn when they obviously dont give shit about it? why am i even crying when they are happily sleeping right now? why am i so stupid? i guess i am the stupid one after all.....

Sunday, 26 April 2009

my cakessssss

okay...i am officially graduated as a pastry chef! my moist chocolate mud cake is so damn GOOD!! not to mention my 3 banana cakes were goners in the same day! i am so happy...and these are my achievements.. (4 cakes in 2 days!)


melting butter and dark chocolates in a bowl...with boiling water underneath..( the recipe says place 200g of chocolate, i placed 300g...haha!)


add sugar and some water...melt everything without boiling it..



cool it down and add eggs, flour and DARK COCOA POWDER! (recipe says place 1/4 cup of cocoa powder...and i placed 1/2 cup...haha)


pour mixture in a greased pan...(actually, the baking tray i used for my banana cake doesnt fit...so i have to use a roasting tray...hahha! i dont know if it makes any difference..)
This is the end product...i had to flip it over to place it on the cooling rack...coz i lift it when it is hot!

cooling it on a rack..look at the middle...it's RICH in chocolate! i am never stingy with chocolates...ahahaha!


this is actually the banana cake on a cooling rack...and i made 3 loaves of the same size... (i think this cake is 1kg each)


the texture of my banana cakes...yum yum....moist and fluffy~


So, are you guys convinced that i am born-with-talent-pastry-chef? hahhaa! my first attempt on the chocolate cake..and i am pleased...really pleased...

2nd post on the same day...25th of april..

why is my happiness so SHORT-LIVED? i was extremely happy with the cake-baking, never ever have to sit for any exam-ANYMORE-feeling, my 2-days-in-a-row-super-lunches & my super window shopping session with my friend.....until.....

*11.49pm, 25th april 2009* ....

someone just rang me up....and i was so naive! thinking that nothing can ever ruin my current mood... can you guys guess who called me?

YEA, it is THE BARBARIAN!!! I never thought that she can actually just called me up and say..

Barbarian: "Connie, do you know we have 2 assignments due on 1st of May?"

Connie: "yes, i know...one is group work (more than 5000 words) and the other is individual work (1500 words)....why?"

Barbarian: "oh, i am just wondering if you can do the part 2 for the group work as well...coz i have to do the individual assessment thing"

Connie: "i haven't done it as well....we'll discuss on monday with the other two and divide work for everyone"

Barbarian: "We'd discussed about it...since you did the slides, only u know how to do everything, we dont know about it...so i doubt we can do good enough"

(my thoughts: bloody hell! YOU GUYS DISCUSSED ABOUT HAVING ME TO DO THE WHOLE DAMN THING?! RIDICULOUS!"

Connie: "i think we should rediscuss about this matter on monday with everyone talking face to face...coz i am kinda busy right now.."

Barbarian: "can you meet me tomorrow night and tell me how to do the individual work? I am free after 8pm"

(my thoughts: *tuuuttt* Why do i have to purposely meet you according to YOUR convenience and doing a FAVOUR for you as well? shouldn't it be the other way round?)

Connie: "I am not sure, we'll see...i am not free now, talk to you tomorrow..bye"

*hang up*

Yea-right....There are 4 parts and i had done 2 parts (half of it)...and the other half is to be done by THREE of them! And now, if i were to do the 3rd part as well, can you guys guessed what THREE people have to do?

Objective and the Summary...i supposed that they can't do the summary as well, coz you can't expect someone who didnt do anything to write a summary about it...can they? WHICH MEANS THREE PEOPLE WRITING THE OBJECTIVE!

As for me...do you guys have any idea what i have to do? i'll briefly show the outline of the whole thing:

1.Business Focus:
Summary, objectives and SWOT analysis (i had done the SWOT analysis)

2. Market Research :
Market segmentation, evidence of customer demand, competitor profiling, global market trends, future market trends, factor affecting the market trend, legal issues such as patening the product (all to be supported by evidence)

3. Market Plan:
Products, Pricing policy, Promotional Plan, Location

4. Financial plan:
Start up requirements, Sources of finance (how & where to get loan), Sales forecast, Cashflow forecast, Profit and loss forecast


SO, WHAT DO YOU GUYS THINK? I was assigned to do part 3 & 4 and now, they wanted to add part 2...i had done SWOT analysis...So, they are left with summary and objectives...LIFE IS TOUGH!

i mean it...DONT YOU GUYS DARE TO SAY "YOU MADE YOUR LIFE THIS WAY"

I DID NOT!

Come and step in my shoes...think from my side...Can you trust them with your marks? Can you risk your 1st class and trade it for an ordinary pass (mind you, there is no second upper...only a 1st or a pass awarded..) ? What will you think if this module pulled down your average making you just 1% slightly lower from making it to the 1st class? How do you think you will feel? You will have to bear with the 1% lower which branded you as a PASS for your whole life! Then why the hell did you go through all those fuss when a 40% is also a PASS? you could've spent your days loitering and still get a 40%! You dont even need to study to get a 40%!

Okay...i'll stop...i dont wana think anymore...as if i have a choice...DAMN it! this is how to ruin a perfect mood of mine...i am so damn furious, bitter, upset, and whatever you guys wana call it.. damn! i am damned!

Ps: yea, i am FURIOUS! that's why i am going to watch some cartoons and eat chocolates! Luckily i bought 4 huge bars of dark chocolate today...maybe i had a premonition without even knowing it...haha~ anyway....i am feeling a lot better after rambling...hehe!

My 3 banana cakes are GONER~ (my droplet size of happiness versus a raging sea of embitterment....i chose the droplet, so i am still a happy person in the end~ after all, i have my chocolates with me...)

Saturday, 25 April 2009

graduated TWO different courses at the same time...

YES! The title of the post is CORRECT... i am quite certain that my MSc in Biotech has been obtained...but...which is the other COURSE?

*ahem*

CURIOUS? * LOL*

okay, i'll cut the crap~ i baked a banana cake yesterday night...and it was finished before it even cooled down!!!! wow~ it is THAT GOOD! so, i ended up baking another one today....and i had to hide it in my room to cool it down...(coz i promised by friend that i would her some)...

but before i get to keep a slice in a tupperware, it is a GONER for my cake!!!! and i had to bake another one....now, it is still in the oven...and i am hoping that i can manage to keep some for my friend...or else...i will have to bake another one! hahha!

but i enjoyed the baking process..i have to admit...it is THAT GOOD! hahhaha! okay, i am going to bake a chocolate mud cake soon...maybe after a day or two...depending on my mood~ so, i actually graduated as a pastry chef now~ hahahaha!

ps: i am really happy that everyone's loving it and keep complimenting it~ ahaha! i am actually really happy but trying to conceal the stupid grin on my face when they were complimenting me~ hahaa!

the best compliment: Connie, if you dont wana become a biotechnologist, you can always open a bakery shop~

okay...gotta check on my cakeyyy now~

Friday, 24 April 2009

historical day....

today, 24th april 2009, 12.30pm UK time, marked the last ever exam that i will ever have to take in my life...i am excited and there is no words to decribe how i feel...i will definitely miss all-niter revision session, instant noodles, canned tuna, lotsa apples and lotsa oranges...hahhaa!

most of all....i will miss my GUILT-FREE-CHOCOLATE-INDUGENCE- SESSION...i used exams' stress as my excuse to indulge in chocolates everyday~ minus the guilt...hhaha!

okay, i will stop here coz i need to celebrate...hahhaha~ tata~

Re-edited: did i mention how i celebrate? cleaning my room...SPOTLESS...every inch...and of course, baking a banana cake for my housemates....opppsss..almost forgot to mention that right after exam, i had a HUGE lunch with my spanish friend...A very nice and attractive girl...we had a moist chocolate fudge cake with double vanilla ice cream scoopes...

i find myself annoying for mentioning about chocolates every single time...but i cant help it..i am chocoholic after all...

PS: right after exam, one of the barbarians came over and said "connie, we have a business plan due on 1st of may..."

my thoughts " what the *tuuuttt*! right after exam, i am floating on cloud nine and u came over and send me right to hell with just a few words..."

my reply: "can we talk about this next time? i dont feel like talking about it...i am tired and i need some time off"

afterall, i am the one doing all the research and the presentation slides...i think i will be the one WRITING up the plan as well...absolutely hate it...my real freedom will be after 1st of may...where i dont need to give a poop about what they are up to~

Thursday, 9 April 2009

Daddy's girl..

i had been ambushed by sore throat and followed by a stealth attack by fever....then, my immune system managed to call for some back up team and counter-attack sore-throat and fever...however, the enemies managed to contact their headquaters before they perished...so, their back up team called 'the flu' brought up a head-on war with my immune system...My immune system was defeated by 'the flu'....so i ended up with a runny nose now....

HOWEVER, 'the flu' will only remain in conquer for a while...I had my immune system backed up with "redoxon", "Kiwis" and "oranges"....after the accumulation of these 3-vitamin-C-packed aids, I will launch a full blast on "the flu"....hahaha! we'll see who's the winner!!!!

Okay, cut the crap...i am down with flu...and i am really happy that my Dad called me at 2.20am (Msia time) when he knew that i am sick...hehe! I think he had just arrived home from some outing and heard from my mum that i am sick..so he called...hehhe! Just because of this, i will be recover as soon as possible by launching a full attack on "the flu"...hehhe

Okay, everyone has gone home to celebrate easter...so i am alone in the flat...thank god! I can at least have a quiet enviroment to start my revision...i havent print my notes out yet! darn...gonna download all of it now...tata~

Stay tune for more war experiences...

*this story is inspired by the fact that a LJMU student (my uni) was arrested under terrorism act...10 men were arrested at my uni's library...so, i hope that they can blast the uni campus during easter break when no one is in...so, my exam can be postponed...haha...seriously, i hope they wont hurt anyone...i pray for the safety of everyone...I do not understand why they choose to become terrorists...stop hurting innocent people...too much of testosterone causes this behaviour...and it might be having more than one Y chromosome that causes this behaviour...it was demonstrated that aggressive criminals usually have XYY chromosome...which is what i call MUTANT...

i'll stop...before i start crapping..hhahah!

Wednesday, 8 April 2009

some random thoughts

this might be due to slight fever i am having...hahha! my friend asked me why didnt i wear the new top i bought to club the other day... i didnt really answer her...but these are my thoughts:

it's a bit flesh-flashing...so it's kinda dangerous if i were to go out alone...if my housemates were going, then it will be fine wearing that top...at least someone accompany you home, right?

Situation 1: You were molested/raped/harrassed when you are wearing normal clothing
My thoughts: I sympathised you...and i'll hope that guy gets a death sentence...and castrate him before executing him...(serves him right)

Situation 2: You were molested/raped/harrassed when you wear flashing clothes and walking in a well-lit area
My thoughts: similar as above but wouldnt castrate the guy though...you shouldnt be walking alone in those clothing and the guy should actually have some self control~ (both wrong situation)

Situation 3: You were molested/raped/harrassed when you wear flashing clothes and walking in a dark alley...ALONE
My thoughts: Serves you right. Which dumba$$ would actually walk alone wearing not-enough-clothing? You made the guys tempted! So blame it on yourself for inviting the assault..

So, it really depends..actually sometimes, i think some girls really deserved it! I mean, come on, you literally invited the assault! Guys cant think straight when they were half drunk and it's even impossible to resist temptation! So, dress appropriately according to situation you might be in...okay?

Girls, learn to protect yourself... dont make eye contact if you are not interested...haha!

Sometimes, i really hate some girls...those who wouldn't get off the car unless the guys opened the door for them...if i were the guy, i would kick that girl off MY car...hahhaha! send her flying out and rolling in the middle of the road..ha-ha!

ahem...okay, i dont know why i am thinking such a thing..hhaha! that's why it's a random thoughts...but for guys, i really think you should give that girl a super kick if she waited for you to open the door for her..and i mean only the car's door, okay?...typical gentlemen should hold the door open for a girl...hahhah! (unless she has some excusable inabilities of course)

Tuesday, 7 April 2009

i am proud of myself..

i am so pleased and proud of myself...despite having sore throat and a lil' bit of fever, i managed to bake a DELICIOUS banana cake and even made char siew pao!! okay, i'll be frank...the char siew pao's dough is made from those ready packed flour....you just have to ad water and knead it...but the char siew (bbq pork) is actually cooked by myself!!


as for the banana cake, i made it from SCRATCH!!! hahhaa! i am so pleased!! mum, for the next chinese new year, i am going to bake a dozen of this cake! hahhaa! the whole cake is finished within a day!!! imagine how delicious it is...


Picture says more than a thousand words...here it goes!!!





My wet and dry ingredients...


After combining all my ingredients and placed in a greased spring form pan...


after baking..right outta oven!!

look at that delicious product!! omg...it was sooo goooddd! (i cant believe i made it all by myself and it was a success!! my first time of baking...memorable..hhahahha!)



my char siew (bbq pork)...i cooked it myself...and even minced the meat myself!



my mixed dough...from the prepared pack...just add water...


my cute lil' char siew pao...hhahahha!


straight outta the steam pot



This is how the end product looked!! yum yum!


Ps: u cant believe how happy i was...if this motivation were to be put into studies, i guess i would excel...hhahaha!
PPS: barbarians have been annoying me again...eventhough i answer their calls which my "sexy" voice, they still keep calling...i thought if you know someone is not feeling well, you'll leave them alone!! argh! they just dont get it! I told them i am sick and havin fever as well...and guess what they said? "can you come to the library tomorrow morning to compare the notes?"
my thought: *ttuuutttt* you all!!! can u see that i am *tuuttt* sick?!!! and for the *tuutt* notes, you can just download it from the internet!! darn! everything is on the internet!!! i havent even printed mine out!!! **tttuuuttttuuuuttttuuuuttttuuuuttt**
my answer: if i can....
I dont know what i should do...if i dont help them, i feel guilty and selfish and just basically i feel like a jerk...
If i help them, i have to drag myself in the cold weather!! which i really dont want to!!! i dont wana have fever while going for exam!!


Sunday, 5 April 2009

another homemade dessert...

ahem...it wasnt a success...hhahaha! but it tastes great...i had a really bad sore throat...so i tend to add honey to all my food, drinks and of course, dessert... my breakfast kicked off with steamed bread and microwaved crumpets (not toasted) with honey drizzled on top and a glass of honey (not entire glass...two teaspoon dissolved)....(i bought honey this morning, before breakfast....)...then my afternoon-dessert is tau foo fah with honey drizzled on it...again...

hopefully, i can recover by the end of the day...i dont feel like taking any minty sweets as i feel honey is really soothing..and i love sweet stuff!!!!

here's my tau foo fah...drizzled with honey...(healthier than using melted sugar)...hahha!




my tau foo fah...and my bottle of au-natural honey...(it's really expensive!!! darn!) and the funny thing is that...on the bottle of honey, it is written "save the honey bee"...and repeated for 3 times...does that mean they are discouraging us to buy natural honey product? maybe we should use caramelised sugar instead...SAVE THE HONEY BEE



my tau foo fah with honey drizzled on top...i know it doesnt look good...anyway, who cares? it looked worse when it is in your GI..hahah! i had a hard time finding a black bowl! or else, you wont be able to see my tau foo fah~ hohoho!


ps: hopefully, my sore throat will be better...or i'll finish the whole bottle of honey...which is also a good thing...hm...now i am thinking, should i hope for faster recovery??


fast recovery : no sore throat~ i can eat ANYTHING


getting worse : i can buy another bottle of honey and finish it off~ yum yum...anyway, i gained on both scenario...oppss...and my weight suffers..hahahha! who cares!!

*RE-EDITED*

see the phrase : save the honey bee? i am not good at taking pictures and i am even worse at editing pictures...(IT/SOFTWARE IDIOT) so it's a bit blurry...hhahaha!

Saturday, 4 April 2009

nite out~

i went clubbing with my frens (2 girls) last thursday...it was a hasty decision and i dont even have much preparation time! we went to Camel Club...and...ahem...i drank a lot...but luckily wasnt drunk~

I drank 3 bottles of WKD and 2 smrinoff ice vodka....and one glass of cocktail (i dont remember its fancy name...something like 'mumbo jumbo'? hahhhaa!

after clubbing, we managed to flag a cab and went to one of the girls' place...we chit chatted till 5.30am and we went home separately...

Today!! jeng jeng jeng~ i baked chocolate cake...actually, not baking...microwaving...hahhaha! 3 minutes needed...and it's healthy...easy....fast!!!!

ingredients: unsweetened cocoa powder (a lot!!! chocoholic), milk, water, flour, baking powder and brown sugar (i didnt put much)

note: no butter/eggs...hahhaha!

here's the pics!!


me..before going out...manage to pose a hundred times...hahahha!

cam whoring...i mean...webcam whoring..hahhah! hey, photo angle makes a difference you know? that's why you need to cam whore..hahhaha!

at my fren's place (the one in white)


in the club


my mixture...

my tiny cupcake...


this is how it looked like on the inside...yum yum~


ps: dont believe me...i always praise myself...hahhahha! i failed for the 1st two times...coz i followed the recipe...saying i should include eggs and butter...after omitting them, my cake is a success...hahhaha!