that title is not the song title from Gwen, okay? argh! i am fully awake at 4am due to a stupid fire alarm! i just took my handphones (yea, shouldn't have done that)....passport & other documents? i didn't even touch it...forgotten where...hhahha! i didn't wear any shoes and we have to stand in an open field....it is 1 degree and the wind is blowing like hell....lucky that it wasn't snowing as it had been snowing for the past few nights...guess what? i stayed at the top floor...which means running down 7 floors bare footed...
the first thing i did was calling home...hahhaha! i am not scared or anything...just wanted to call them for fun^^ my mum said i am quite clever since i took my handphones with me...hahha! as for other documents, it wasn't that important, i guess...hahhaha! i even managed to wear a jacket, but forgotten bout shoes since all my shoes are properly placed in a shoerack under my bed...next time, i'll remember to wear a shoes...my toes hurt! lucky that i didn't get any frostbites^^ i can't sleep right now, so i ended up blogging...
almost forgot to mention one thing...i don't know why in the hell would guys be fighting so suddenly at 4am....crazeeee! security ended up breakin up the fight....just by standing in da cold weather they fought? too much testosterone...hahhah! or they are trying to warm up? hahha! weirdos...but i hate to see the scene....
hopefully, i can sleep off soon...hmm...maybe i'll have a nice cup of hot chocolate now^^ tata^^
Ps: after seeing some of the girls, i had looked into the mirror and luckily, my sleepy look is quite a nice one^^ no worries of scaring other innocent lives...
Friday, 31 October 2008
Thursday, 30 October 2008
something i dont understand....
this page is specially dedicated for jojo....
i am facing da exact problems that you had been facing when you started your job...argh....i do not know what to do right now, so i am going to seek for your advice... P & C! ahhaha!
really hope that you are here to share some thoughts with me...
anyway, hope you are doing well^^
happy, worried, nervous, enjoy....all at once
living hall...haven add the finishing touch..
the corridor...
before decoration...corridor..looked a lot nicer (i think)
living hall...before decoration..i had just decorated the house for HALLOWEEN party taking place in MY unit tomorrow....i am so happy to decorate the house....it'll feels good^^ at least we are having fun.....i'll show u guys the pictures...coz i might not be blogging tomorrow night....
i am nervous for the outcome and attending the party...for this is the first time i attend a Halloween party...with a costume...i'll either be going as a japanese high school girl or a doctor (suggested by my housemates)....
i am worried...because according to my housemate, K, there'll be at least 20 guys...which equals to troubles.....argh...i had been observing them....they partied every thursday, friday and saturday nights....with lots of alcohol and banging head on da walls (i am not joking, okay?).....argh....and my housemates (L, F, A-M & S) always bring different guys home....and karen told me one of the guys had been observing and would like to befriend...not that i am not friendly, but i dont feel like making friends with people that has motives...i had seen him around a few times, and i dont like the way the look at people...argh...Karen told me she'll be getting me drunk for sure.... -.-"'
i still remember on 30th August this year...hahha! my coursemates did say the exact same thing to me....we bought Bacardi, Rum, Scottish Whisky, Tequila pop, beers and vodka.....they said wana get me drunk....18 of us....4 girls standing at the end...me, mui yun, yueh yee and sok peng....(sok peng didnt drink much)...but ended up yueh yee, mui yun and i finished everything...i didnt get drunk....and a coursemate of mine said 'to get you drunk, my liver will be burnt first'....hahha! but that day, i went to drink with a guy friend for some old time catch up...i got a bit dizzy....it's weird...i just drank 2 pints of citrus alcohol....it shouldn't get me dizzy...
so, i don't know whether i'll get drunk tomorrow night...the worst part is yet to come.....K said 'with more than 20 guys, i wonder how many i can get....but they' prefer asians, you know? you have the chance to bag a few to your room'.....when i heard this, i dont know how to reply her....kinda disgusted...she even ask me if i am single...i know what that question means....
i am enjoying the process of setting up the party...including listing of food, decorating, costume-deciding, pumpkin decorating...etc...
i guess i cant be worried anymore...just wait and see what happens next...and as my pre caution step..(yea, i am kinda clever...and i am not shy to admit..) i invited my coursemates to join....2 girls....i am not sure if they'll come...depending on the cruel weather.....if they come, at least they can save me^^.......i am praying that all those partying will NOT include marijuanas.....coz they included it the first time....and luckily, i didnt join due to some stuffs....argh....
i guess everything will be fine^^
i am nervous for the outcome and attending the party...for this is the first time i attend a Halloween party...with a costume...i'll either be going as a japanese high school girl or a doctor (suggested by my housemates)....
i am worried...because according to my housemate, K, there'll be at least 20 guys...which equals to troubles.....argh...i had been observing them....they partied every thursday, friday and saturday nights....with lots of alcohol and banging head on da walls (i am not joking, okay?).....argh....and my housemates (L, F, A-M & S) always bring different guys home....and karen told me one of the guys had been observing and would like to befriend...not that i am not friendly, but i dont feel like making friends with people that has motives...i had seen him around a few times, and i dont like the way the look at people...argh...Karen told me she'll be getting me drunk for sure.... -.-"'
i still remember on 30th August this year...hahha! my coursemates did say the exact same thing to me....we bought Bacardi, Rum, Scottish Whisky, Tequila pop, beers and vodka.....they said wana get me drunk....18 of us....4 girls standing at the end...me, mui yun, yueh yee and sok peng....(sok peng didnt drink much)...but ended up yueh yee, mui yun and i finished everything...i didnt get drunk....and a coursemate of mine said 'to get you drunk, my liver will be burnt first'....hahha! but that day, i went to drink with a guy friend for some old time catch up...i got a bit dizzy....it's weird...i just drank 2 pints of citrus alcohol....it shouldn't get me dizzy...
so, i don't know whether i'll get drunk tomorrow night...the worst part is yet to come.....K said 'with more than 20 guys, i wonder how many i can get....but they' prefer asians, you know? you have the chance to bag a few to your room'.....when i heard this, i dont know how to reply her....kinda disgusted...she even ask me if i am single...i know what that question means....
i am enjoying the process of setting up the party...including listing of food, decorating, costume-deciding, pumpkin decorating...etc...
i guess i cant be worried anymore...just wait and see what happens next...and as my pre caution step..(yea, i am kinda clever...and i am not shy to admit..) i invited my coursemates to join....2 girls....i am not sure if they'll come...depending on the cruel weather.....if they come, at least they can save me^^.......i am praying that all those partying will NOT include marijuanas.....coz they included it the first time....and luckily, i didnt join due to some stuffs....argh....
i guess everything will be fine^^
Wednesday, 29 October 2008
My new nickname
....i am kinda upset....why? why? why?????!! today, both my Indians classmates were talkin' in Tamil language...SUDDENLY, they turn to me....one of them, S, said 'Connie, i think you know Tamil language...coz you looked mixed Northern Indians'
i just stared at her...and another girl, V, continue 'hahha! you are hybrid, aren't you?'
This is not the first time someone said i am mixed...arghh....3rd time in Liverpool alone i had been asked if i am mixed Indian...not including those asking me if i am mixed Arabian, Japanese, and Caucasian...Argh! I AM PURE CHINESE! MALAYSIAN CHINESE, OKIE??
whew...okie, and for my nickname....Transgenic / Recombinant Connie....because i am not 'wild type' (pure strain, genetic term).....argh...anyway, nice having a new nick...
TODAY, I SAW THE MOST DISGUSTING SCENE IN MY LIFE...okie...here the story goes...
in my course, there is a guy whom i absolutely ignore/avoid/neglect/abandon whatever you guys call it....i find him kinda eccentric...weird...so, i try to sit as far as possible from him...i had an IT tutorial to attend, so i ended up msn with my msian frens as well as coursemates...due to this msn stuff, i could NOT arrive at the lecture hall earlier and choose a comfy place..when i enter the hall with both my indian frens, we cant find any place...EXCEPT ONE...sitting next to this weirdo...okay, i think to myself that it's time go put aside my perjudice against him and might as well sit in between him and both my indian frens....halfway through the lecture, you know what he DID????
He PUT his hand INTO his PANTS! Right at that moment, i didnt know what to do and i thought 'Oh My God! i am sitting next to the most disgusting person i'll ever come across..' I wanted to leave at that moment, but i was stuck in between...i acted as if i didnt see anything and he continue to put his hand inside...DONT ASK ME, i dont know what he was doing...maybe it was really that cold, so he had to put his hand inside? i guess...whatever...now, i trust my first impression more than EVER! i will never ever sit next to him again! NEVER! (unless i am forced to)
hmm...the person who kept calling me for da past few days has stopped calling me....weird...maybe he/she did read my blog and know he/she will be bored to death by wednesday lectures...muahahhah! keep my fingers crossed, pray that this person wont call me anymore...or i'll change my hp num^^
last nite, it snowed^^ i love to look outside my window...but...it's so cold!!! i almost turn into a frozen pig last nite! hahha!
to some of you (you know who you are) who left me offline msgs concerning my well being, i am currently fine...and thanks for caring...all the best in job lookin'.....and for chop-chop (keep ya anonymous), congratulations that you got that job...dont worry bout it, just try it out..who knows what will happen? stay focus, and u'll be fine^^
i just stared at her...and another girl, V, continue 'hahha! you are hybrid, aren't you?'
This is not the first time someone said i am mixed...arghh....3rd time in Liverpool alone i had been asked if i am mixed Indian...not including those asking me if i am mixed Arabian, Japanese, and Caucasian...Argh! I AM PURE CHINESE! MALAYSIAN CHINESE, OKIE??
whew...okie, and for my nickname....Transgenic / Recombinant Connie....because i am not 'wild type' (pure strain, genetic term).....argh...anyway, nice having a new nick...
TODAY, I SAW THE MOST DISGUSTING SCENE IN MY LIFE...okie...here the story goes...
in my course, there is a guy whom i absolutely ignore/avoid/neglect/abandon whatever you guys call it....i find him kinda eccentric...weird...so, i try to sit as far as possible from him...i had an IT tutorial to attend, so i ended up msn with my msian frens as well as coursemates...due to this msn stuff, i could NOT arrive at the lecture hall earlier and choose a comfy place..when i enter the hall with both my indian frens, we cant find any place...EXCEPT ONE...sitting next to this weirdo...okay, i think to myself that it's time go put aside my perjudice against him and might as well sit in between him and both my indian frens....halfway through the lecture, you know what he DID????
He PUT his hand INTO his PANTS! Right at that moment, i didnt know what to do and i thought 'Oh My God! i am sitting next to the most disgusting person i'll ever come across..' I wanted to leave at that moment, but i was stuck in between...i acted as if i didnt see anything and he continue to put his hand inside...DONT ASK ME, i dont know what he was doing...maybe it was really that cold, so he had to put his hand inside? i guess...whatever...now, i trust my first impression more than EVER! i will never ever sit next to him again! NEVER! (unless i am forced to)
hmm...the person who kept calling me for da past few days has stopped calling me....weird...maybe he/she did read my blog and know he/she will be bored to death by wednesday lectures...muahahhah! keep my fingers crossed, pray that this person wont call me anymore...or i'll change my hp num^^
last nite, it snowed^^ i love to look outside my window...but...it's so cold!!! i almost turn into a frozen pig last nite! hahha!
to some of you (you know who you are) who left me offline msgs concerning my well being, i am currently fine...and thanks for caring...all the best in job lookin'.....and for chop-chop (keep ya anonymous), congratulations that you got that job...dont worry bout it, just try it out..who knows what will happen? stay focus, and u'll be fine^^
at last, update u guys wif my vacation pics..
okie, tis is a startin' pic...i know, i shud stop eating n start bloggin n updating photos -.-"'
Hailie & i...somewhr in Dubai Desert
Eiffel Tower, Paris
Umm...some Fortress in Italy..forgotten da name..
opps! Lemon & cocoa ice-cream rite before goin to bed (Fabulous Camping Village, Rome)
on da way to waterfall...UK
Wahi, Dubai
West Kirby, UK (on da way)
Von & i @ Paris
Ski Dubai
Dubai Desert
right outside Moulin Rouge, France
Wishes, Hopes, & Dreams written inside Notre Dame de Paris
Lake District, UK
SnowDon...
On Top of Eiffel Tower (romantic...but without partner) -.-'''
Edinburgh, Scotland
Venice 
Italy, Trevi Fountain (i love tis) 
overnite OUTSIDE airport of italy 
Musee de Lourve, Paris 
Pompeii Ruins (i hate tis place) read my sept blog, u'll know 
Colosseo, Italy 
Vatican City I am really sorry, but i cant find photos i took @ Chester, Cheshire Oak, North Wales, Albert Dock....i find it easier to upload photos here then fs & fb...so, i'll update u guys here^^
Tuesday, 28 October 2008
frens
i am supposed to register at the health center...but i am scared of vaccination! arghh...i know i have to sooner or later...but i just want someone to accompany me~ it's scary, you know? okie, i am giving myself a week's time to gather my courage...hehe! settled^^
i dont know why, there is an infectious disease spreading among my classmates....scary, huh? and it has infected 4 people so far...including me....this particular disease is called 'the anonymous calls receiving syndrome' ....hahhah! we r receiving anonymous phone calls....it started with a mongolian girl, Z...she had been receiving tis call for 2 days....then, we sat together to discuss something...suddenly, a British-Indian girl, J started to receive this kind of calls....different phone numbers....then, an Arabian gal, F...also received the same thing...suddenly my phone rings...and thus, four of us had been infected....i dont know who is that...i dont even know if it's a he or a she...coz this person keep whispering somethg....i just left it answered during the lecture and hopefully da lecture on cell technology bored him/her to death^^ hahahha! i didnt pick up the call for 3 times...coz i dont know that number...then, i thought it should be someone i know...coz this person cant be dialling the wrong number everytime, rite? i am still getting this call...
if the person calling me is reading my blog, i hope that you'll stop calling me coz i dont think it's funny....i wont curse you in foul language if that is what you want...hahha!sorry to disappoint you, i dont use foul language except damn/jerk^^ you might as well dial other numbers since there will be no fun calling me...you'll just be listening to lectures...
if you wana listen to lectures, i'll give you the schedule^^
monday = cell technology lec
tuesday = genomic & recombinant lec or u wana speak to my personal tutor?
wednesday = protein engineering lec & fermentation technology lec
thursday = research methods / grant proposal/ turnitin.....
friday = to be confirmed...
basically, if you wana call me, choose wednesday...there are more lectures..and i dont have break during that day...okie?
i dont know why, there is an infectious disease spreading among my classmates....scary, huh? and it has infected 4 people so far...including me....this particular disease is called 'the anonymous calls receiving syndrome' ....hahhah! we r receiving anonymous phone calls....it started with a mongolian girl, Z...she had been receiving tis call for 2 days....then, we sat together to discuss something...suddenly, a British-Indian girl, J started to receive this kind of calls....different phone numbers....then, an Arabian gal, F...also received the same thing...suddenly my phone rings...and thus, four of us had been infected....i dont know who is that...i dont even know if it's a he or a she...coz this person keep whispering somethg....i just left it answered during the lecture and hopefully da lecture on cell technology bored him/her to death^^ hahahha! i didnt pick up the call for 3 times...coz i dont know that number...then, i thought it should be someone i know...coz this person cant be dialling the wrong number everytime, rite? i am still getting this call...
if the person calling me is reading my blog, i hope that you'll stop calling me coz i dont think it's funny....i wont curse you in foul language if that is what you want...hahha!sorry to disappoint you, i dont use foul language except damn/jerk^^ you might as well dial other numbers since there will be no fun calling me...you'll just be listening to lectures...
if you wana listen to lectures, i'll give you the schedule^^
monday = cell technology lec
tuesday = genomic & recombinant lec or u wana speak to my personal tutor?
wednesday = protein engineering lec & fermentation technology lec
thursday = research methods / grant proposal/ turnitin.....
friday = to be confirmed...
basically, if you wana call me, choose wednesday...there are more lectures..and i dont have break during that day...okie?
Monday, 27 October 2008
weird..
it's weird...i suddenly spaced out in lecture! hahha! (though it happened many times before...but it's weird....) i never feel like this.... i usually nap or just dream bout somethg during lectures...but today, i totally spaced out! i didnt tink of anything...it is just blank....my frens miss called me to 'wake' me....but i didnt even notice the phone vibrating! i am very sensitive to this...but i dont know what happen....sleep too much at home during da weekend? i didnt really sleep that much! only 7 hours and i didnt even nap...argh...i must stay focus!!!! at least dont let my mind wonder around...it's too small to be on its own^^ hahhahaha!
here comes the second part....i need to do some thinking...or shall i say planning? maybe it's time for me to let go....let her be independent...maybe it's my fault everything turns out to be like this...after all, i may not be doing the right thing...a fren of mine gimme a piece of his mind bout this matter and......i dunno what to say bout it......he knocked some senses into my mind...and i dont know what i should do rite now....more stuff to think about...
suddenly, i rmbr bout tis kacang i talked about...kinda pity 'it' (sorry, gotta stay anonymous...even the gender) haha! this kacang is so cocky that 'it' made a very rude n sacrastic comment on one of our coursemates....and it ended up 'it' has to eat that comment...since i believe in karma, i guess what 'it' said reflect on 'itself'....sorry to apply da word 'it'..but need to keep you anonymous, ya know?
dearest jojo, i am practising what you told me once....finding absolute happiness...i hope you r doin da same for yourself...do not settle for relative happiness...i dont know what'll happen, but i hope you get what you hoped for...kinda miss our class-skippin routine...hahha! Do not settle for the second best...
here comes the second part....i need to do some thinking...or shall i say planning? maybe it's time for me to let go....let her be independent...maybe it's my fault everything turns out to be like this...after all, i may not be doing the right thing...a fren of mine gimme a piece of his mind bout this matter and......i dunno what to say bout it......he knocked some senses into my mind...and i dont know what i should do rite now....more stuff to think about...
suddenly, i rmbr bout tis kacang i talked about...kinda pity 'it' (sorry, gotta stay anonymous...even the gender) haha! this kacang is so cocky that 'it' made a very rude n sacrastic comment on one of our coursemates....and it ended up 'it' has to eat that comment...since i believe in karma, i guess what 'it' said reflect on 'itself'....sorry to apply da word 'it'..but need to keep you anonymous, ya know?
dearest jojo, i am practising what you told me once....finding absolute happiness...i hope you r doin da same for yourself...do not settle for relative happiness...i dont know what'll happen, but i hope you get what you hoped for...kinda miss our class-skippin routine...hahha! Do not settle for the second best...
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jojo & i at BBQ party...hosted by mui yun, before i left for UK
for winnee dear...sorry that i could make it for your graduation and cant invite you to mine....3 graduations...and i cant even attend any of them...talk bout bad timing...nvm, da fourth one is coming..hahha! get ready for it^^ i'll always rmbr you as the first friend i knew from TARC...cant imagine that we become best friends...dunno why i can rmbr clearly da very first day we met and every tiny details...feels just like it happened yesterday^^ hahha! i cant stop laughing by myself as i think of the first day^^
Saturday, 25 October 2008
i dunno...
i dunno how shud i put this...there is somethg i wanted to do, but i cant find anyone supporting me thru it....shud i just give up and listen? or shud i do as i like for the second time? why did i mention it as second time? the first time i followed my heart, it proves me wrong! very wrong...
so, now i had somethg i wanted to do, but i am worried that it'll just be like that first wrong decision of mine.....i dunno...seriously....lotsa things need to be considered....suddenly, i just dunno whom i shud turn to....i had all the best frens....but i just dont think they'll understand if i talk bout it...only i can make this decision...i'll consider again.....and i'll make a choice that i'll never regret...this time...
anyway, i had won the war of tomatoes~ yay! stupid tomatoes....=.="'
so, now i had somethg i wanted to do, but i am worried that it'll just be like that first wrong decision of mine.....i dunno...seriously....lotsa things need to be considered....suddenly, i just dunno whom i shud turn to....i had all the best frens....but i just dont think they'll understand if i talk bout it...only i can make this decision...i'll consider again.....and i'll make a choice that i'll never regret...this time...
anyway, i had won the war of tomatoes~ yay! stupid tomatoes....=.="'
Friday, 24 October 2008
hmmmm
decision, decision.....Bt cotton or tomatoes?? headache!
i'd done Bt transgenic cotton's research...but now, i have to add transgenic tomatoes! i hate you tomatoes! i thought u r just a damn type of food...why should i study your metabolic pathway, how u ripen, what chemical changes you undergo during ripening, and how mechanical, chemical, biotic, and abiotic stresses causes changes in your chemical production??!!! argh!
gosh! i am talking to tomatoes! ummm....excuse me? hahhahah! whatever...dont worry, i am not crazy~~
just wait till i am done with these tomatoes! i am goin to study you (the tomatoes) inside out!
i'd done Bt transgenic cotton's research...but now, i have to add transgenic tomatoes! i hate you tomatoes! i thought u r just a damn type of food...why should i study your metabolic pathway, how u ripen, what chemical changes you undergo during ripening, and how mechanical, chemical, biotic, and abiotic stresses causes changes in your chemical production??!!! argh!
gosh! i am talking to tomatoes! ummm....excuse me? hahhahah! whatever...dont worry, i am not crazy~~
just wait till i am done with these tomatoes! i am goin to study you (the tomatoes) inside out!
Thursday, 23 October 2008
oh yea~ i got it rite!
aha! wondering what is the thing that i got it right? hahhah! well, two things....
first thing is that i got my assignment on the right track...hehehe! without too much of effort...i was wondering and got a bit confused about the resources....i thought of changing the path...then suddenly, i got my brain working..(okie, i am kinda lazy to find new resources, so i used my brain to think of a way to link the resources with the topic)....hhahaha! finally, my brain is functioning again.... i am doing endogenous biosynthesis in plant and its association with biotechnology....this is just one of the assignments...but who cares, as long as i have the resources, i can work out a way to finish it in time...all these years of practising to produce last minute work is beneficial when you are late for a month for the course!
second thing....i had chosen a loyal, kind-hearted, caring, loving, cute best best buddy! she is kazak! all these years, i am so glad that i had you as my pal...you just cant imagine how glad i am to have a fren like this! most of the people cant find a sincere fren...and i am so lucky i found one...she can grumble and lecture a lot...from what you eat to your daily routine....my mum doesnt complain as much as this kazak does! hahhahahha! she confide in me whenever she face a problem and she share her happiness with me whenever she found some....even if it's only a lil' amount of happiness! hahha! and i noticed that everytime i am in trouble or facing a problem, she'll suddenly call me without knowing why she made that call...we just clicked!!!
what else can i hoped for? i am born in the best family anyone could ever dream of, having a bunch of great friends, able to further my studies this far....what else? i am really grateful for all these....and i believe in being kind to others means being kind to yourself...i'll treat everyone like how i wanted them to treat me~ love you guys!!
first thing is that i got my assignment on the right track...hehehe! without too much of effort...i was wondering and got a bit confused about the resources....i thought of changing the path...then suddenly, i got my brain working..(okie, i am kinda lazy to find new resources, so i used my brain to think of a way to link the resources with the topic)....hhahaha! finally, my brain is functioning again.... i am doing endogenous biosynthesis in plant and its association with biotechnology....this is just one of the assignments...but who cares, as long as i have the resources, i can work out a way to finish it in time...all these years of practising to produce last minute work is beneficial when you are late for a month for the course!
second thing....i had chosen a loyal, kind-hearted, caring, loving, cute best best buddy! she is kazak! all these years, i am so glad that i had you as my pal...you just cant imagine how glad i am to have a fren like this! most of the people cant find a sincere fren...and i am so lucky i found one...she can grumble and lecture a lot...from what you eat to your daily routine....my mum doesnt complain as much as this kazak does! hahhahahha! she confide in me whenever she face a problem and she share her happiness with me whenever she found some....even if it's only a lil' amount of happiness! hahha! and i noticed that everytime i am in trouble or facing a problem, she'll suddenly call me without knowing why she made that call...we just clicked!!!
what else can i hoped for? i am born in the best family anyone could ever dream of, having a bunch of great friends, able to further my studies this far....what else? i am really grateful for all these....and i believe in being kind to others means being kind to yourself...i'll treat everyone like how i wanted them to treat me~ love you guys!!
Tuesday, 21 October 2008
assignmentsssss
gosh!!! suddenly, i can feel the pressure rising!! everythg is pilling up!! arghhhh~~ and i dont know why i am still blogging instead of doing somethg beneficial...such as doing assignments, preparing power point slides and preparing for exam...
okie...i have 4 presentation slides to prepare...and four of them are of completely different topics...from one of the slides, i have to prepare for an exam and write 4 A4 papers in ONE hour! help me!! and i have to prepare another assessment on the research proposal grant (another one side of A4)...i have to learn to use a software to draw protein structure..(at least 6 diagrams of synthesis steps)...i hv to do research on plantibodies, and a-i-dunno-bout-biotech-technique for debate...argghhh...now i hv to learn about BLAST program as well as a biocarta map!!
here comes the BEST part...DEADLINE TO MEET.....4TH OF NOVEMBER~ yay! hooray~~
what can i do? another 2 weeks before i die....so...since i am dying anyway, i might as well be doing somethg i like~~ ermm....eating n sleeping...i guess i'll just sleep it off.. muahahhahha! kidding...i wont let myself die that easily....hey, i SURVIVED TARC and Dr. Banu, i can cope with anythg~ hahhahhaha!
okie...i have 4 presentation slides to prepare...and four of them are of completely different topics...from one of the slides, i have to prepare for an exam and write 4 A4 papers in ONE hour! help me!! and i have to prepare another assessment on the research proposal grant (another one side of A4)...i have to learn to use a software to draw protein structure..(at least 6 diagrams of synthesis steps)...i hv to do research on plantibodies, and a-i-dunno-bout-biotech-technique for debate...argghhh...now i hv to learn about BLAST program as well as a biocarta map!!
here comes the BEST part...DEADLINE TO MEET.....4TH OF NOVEMBER~ yay! hooray~~
what can i do? another 2 weeks before i die....so...since i am dying anyway, i might as well be doing somethg i like~~ ermm....eating n sleeping...i guess i'll just sleep it off.. muahahhahha! kidding...i wont let myself die that easily....hey, i SURVIVED TARC and Dr. Banu, i can cope with anythg~ hahhahhaha!
Monday, 20 October 2008
responsibility
the personalised present...given by my youngest sis...i love the packaging...she made it all by herself....thanks, baby!these few days, i had been thinking a lot....i cant go on like this...i have to be tough...it's my responsibility to take care of everythg including pretending to be okie when i am not okie....no matter what happen in the future, as long as i live, my love, my devotion for my family will never change..and nothing can ever make me change my mind.....and i'll prove to everyone that time doesnt change anythg....it's your own thinking that changes everythg...i am glad that i am a part of this happy family and i am blessed to have such a family...i love you guys a lot!
mummie, you learned msn, skype, sms, mms in chinese, malay, and english just to make sure that i wont be bored....you make sure that i packed everythg before leaving and you stayed in kl (eventhough u hated it, it's boring....i know, i know..) just for the sake of spending some time with me before i come to UK....for that, i love you, mum...
daddy, you r one great dad!!! you increased my phone credit limit till it's up the sky, just so that i can stay connected with you all...i thank you a lot...you, bought me everythg i needed, you waited all nite just to make sure that i'd made the right transit to manchester...it was 3am, and u knew dat i had just reached abu dhabi...i love you, daddy!
and my cute lil' sis....you personalise a gift for me! i love you...it's really a big surprise for me....i never thought of receiving it....u may not show the world ur love, but i can feel it...i love you!!!!
Sunday, 19 October 2008
struggling
i suddenly realised that everything changes.....nothing seemed to be the same anymore...i used to be very happy, easy-going person....now, i am caught in between....i dun know what i should do and which is the correct path for me to choose...or am i even have the right to choose....it may seemed to be a small matter to the others, but not for me....
i can only hope that miracles happen and everything is just as it used to be...
i can only hope that miracles happen and everything is just as it used to be...
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