suffering...

damn...opps...what a way to start a new post...hahhah! really, damn!

i had a terrible, horrible, absolutely intolerable skin irritation on my legs...damn! i have red spots all over both my legs...what's making it worse is that my legs are swollen..it is so itchy!!!! i dont know what is the cause... help!!!! damn! how can i get rid of it?

i am so damn busy with my assignments and my legs are like this...what the heck! now, i saw my arms are getting it too! i thought it was hay fever and took some medication...it just continues to get worse...now, i bought calamine lotion and pour it on my legs and arms.. (really pouring..) and my legs r white as paper...hahhaha! anyway, it is STILL damn itchy, ugly, red, and swollen!!!! damn!

my lecturer advised me to wear skirts and put on da lotion...can u imagine? over my dead body...i am not going to wear a skirt with a pair of white, damn ugly legs and in 10 degrees weather! no way! damn! really suffering...da damn medical center wont open till monday...today is friday...damn! and know wat? just to look at da damn doctor costs me 33 pound...another 8 pound for his handwriting (prescription) and i dunno how much for medication...what i estimated would be around 80 pounds...damn! RM500, i can go for entire body check up and there r still so much money left! damn!

my worst nightmare...imagine how i sleep?...i CANT sleep!! i cant let myself scratch it...i cant sleep! my mood is damn bad! damn! argghhh!

okie okie...gotta stop now to check on my legs...hopefully it gets better soon...pleaseeeeeee...

busy...exhausted

it has been quite some time since i last drop by...i am so tired...extremely exhausted... i had been very busy doin my project (poster), seminar presentation as well as 2 long reports for da past few days...i am finally freed...yesterday i hand in my reports and felt a rush of excitement flowin...though i didnt sleep da previous nite, i dont feel sleepy at all...i arrived home around 6pm and started cleaning my room....i was cleaning my room when yvonne suddenly turn up and fell asleep in my bed...i wonder how she does that since i was blasting music as well as walkin around cleanin my room....anyway, around 9.30pm, one of my frenz asked if we would like to go clubbin that nite...so, we went around 11pm...to see strip shows in 'WalkAbout'...it turn out to be disgusting since it was guys strippin and trying to erect on the stage!! i cant bring myself to see any of the shows but my frenz told me briefly on wat's going on...it was disgusting...i mean, what's there to watch anyway? eeeyyuuucckkk! i had my back facing the stage...since some of us were not enjoying ourselves, we decided to go to the next club..'Mood'...that place is quite nice with r&b music blasting...the songs played were fabulous and really get me into dancing mood...however, there was not even a single soul in the dance floor and the whole club was like empty...so we decided to join back our frenz at 'WalkAbout'...we stayed till 2.30am and arrived home around 3am...i decided to call up my mum since it was 9am in M'sia...just to let her know bout my achievements (won a prize for poster presentation!) i am so happy coz i never thought i had the chance...it didnt even know how to draw a stupid graph from adobe...it took me 2 hours to figure out wat to do with the graphs...luckily, a fren of mine lend a helpin hand and taught me through msn...(using paint to colour da graphs)...hahha! thanks to this person dat i manage to produce a winning poster...i am forever in debt...

talkin bout presentation slides...i finished my slides around 3am in da morning...i guess i was too blur coz i din sleep da previous nite..(yea, i didnt sleep for many nites and i am evolving into a panda)...my slides which i backed up in 2 pendrive as well as pc were lost!! i manage to find da 1st slide only..(consisting of title of my presentation only)...i was so tired and i almost cried!! it was 3am and i had to present da next day and had to arrive uni by 9.30am!! luckily, i managed to get through it without crying...someone suddenly popped out in msn and crack some jokes with me..(not the one who taught me how to colour my graphs)...i managed to finish da slides without sleepin...i am also forever in debt to this person...it was a miracle that i managed to finished it in time...now, i believed that miracles do happen when we dont give up on ourselves...

today, i suddenly had some skin irritations..it was so itchy and my pair of legs is in a mess...it was due to the cold weather and my dry skin...tomorrow, i have to go to pharmacy and buy some med to apply on it...

worried...

my pet puppy fell into depression since i left miri...he din really wanna eat and seemed to be unhappy...i did a stupid thing...i asked my mum to switch her hp mode to loudspeaker and let me speak to him...he was so so so HAPPY! my mum was shock coz wen i ask him to 'sit', it really sit down and listen to me....den it started to roll-over.... i really miss my pup...
since he was 2 months old, i had been playing and accompanying him...i really love him!!! he is so cute...at 5.45pm, i'll bring him out for a walk...there was once wen i doze off and forgotten da track of time...he woke me up by barking! it was so cute...clever and cute...he is really loyal...he stuck by me no matter wat...just yesterday, my elder sis went to our backyard to look at him...he tot dat she was me and he run happily while circling my sis!! (my sis looked like me a lot...)...my sis tot he went crazee...haha! my mum saw all this and told me bout it...she said my sis dun go out to da backyard often, so he must have tot she was me....now i can only hope dat he recover from his depression soon...maybe he shud just forget bout me and he'll be out of depression in no time...
luckily i brought his pic wif me...i am going to miss him everyday...

3rd day in liverpool...first day of class..

induction day...we have to wake up around 8am and reach aldephi hotel around 10am...last nite, i slept around 11pm and i woke up at 3am!! i cant even sleep!! i just stared at the ceiling hoping that i might doze off soon...around 7am, i started to prepare myself...we started walking in a group of 15ppl to the hotel...after all those speeches, we finnaly get our lunch which is HORRIBLE, TERRIBLE, UNPALATABLE!! i just took a few bites and left it..von and i din take the bus to tour around liverpool, instead, we walk around liverpool!!! damn tired!! but at least we found cinema, art gallery, museum and lots of shoppin mall...after reaching home around 3.3pm, we refresh ourselves for another shoppin trip to matalan...we reached home around 7pm...now, i had a sore throat due to the horrible food served during lunch!!!
i took some antibiotics and now i am kinda sleepy...tomolo we have to be prepared by 10am to go to HSBC bank to bank in our bankdrafts...hopefully my sore throat will get better tomolo...

2nd day in liverpool

wake up quite late...around 10am uk time...it was raining and quite windy...so cold!! luckily i wear my cute pj..hahaha!! my mum told me my puppy was deppressed since it din saw me for a few days...so cute....i ask my mum to put on loudspeaker so dat it can hear my voice...it just jump around happily!!! wen i said 'sit', it really sit down and roll over!!! so cute!! i miss it so much!!! after the rain stop we all went out for a dinner!! da meal is huge! no, enormous!!!!!! after our meal, we walk around the city....however, the weather is so cold that we cant stand it anymore and we went home....to sleep....hahha!!

life after college...

After TAR college, i had been doing nothing...left to rot in Miri...hahaha!! luckily i have a cute puppy to play with me everyday...however...on 31 May 2008, i boarded a plane to liverpool...this journey sux!!! i started my jouney to KLIA around 6.30pm on 30th May...around 8pm, i arrive...thanx to all the traffic jam in KL...i ahve to wait till 1am on 31 May to board the plane...around 7am M'sia time, i arrive Dubai airport...went for sightseeing for 3 hours before continuing my journey to Manchester...the journey to Manchester took around 6 hours again...waiting for luggage and immigration took another 2 hours...from manchester airport to liverpool took around an hour...waitin for other passengers to board the bus took another hour!!
i am exhausted!! we still have to wait for LJMU representatives to pass us oour hostel keys!! damn tired!! after i dragged my luggage, a backpack and a laptop into my room, i started to clean up the mess..i am so tired...after unpacking and rearranging my stuff, i went shopping wif hai lie, jek ying and von....we need to buy some food!! after walking for sometime (seems like forever to me), we finally reach tesco and bought some food...it was getting colder, so we decided to go home and rest...finally....it was so damn cold at nite!!!