decisions...

I planned to move out...yet, i dunno how to tell the landlord...I knew they really wanted me to stay with them, but I am afraid of the responsibility over the kid...I will be viewing a house later today, of course, without telling them....I am caught in the middle...

Staying with them is not such a bad thing, that is, if the kid is not there...I mean, the kid is not THAT annoying, but I really do not want to be chasing after a kid...Sometimes, I am on the phone with my mum and the parents were talking in the room..they left the kid walking up the stairs! I had to be the one chasing after the kid, so afraid that he will fall down! And whenever they look after the kid, i am the one cleaning the entire floor downstairs..placing all the tiny bits of toys to washing up all the dishes! Sometimes, I had to throw the diapers for them since both of them r busy with 'entertaining' the kid..

I dun mind doing all this for most of the time, but sometimes, when I dun feel like doing it, I HAD to force myself to do it...There r times when you just dun feel like washing up and you just dun feel like doing anything except watching some cartoons and stuffs...but, I can't! I can't just waste my day like that since the landlord is also the supervisor...

They watched news and serious stuffs...and guess what? their new year resolution is not to watch tv in the evening and do more work...I mean, how miserable can the life be??? Anyway, I dun want to be ranting anymore..let's wait for something better to come..

Connie the COW

Yes, as the title suggested, I am working like a COW...I had been up since 6am and I am still in uni now, which is 6.27pm...I am so tired since I still have not fully recovered. But I had no choice to do the experiments. I went to Birmingham University to conduct a small part of 'my' experiment and came back to Aston University and continue the other-unrelated experiment.

I am EXHAUSTED....Actually, I have to do one experiment for myself and the rest is for the BOSS...yep, the landlord...He went home early to take care of THE KID and I had to do his work! I think he took me for granted because he KEPT saying it is my experiment, my work when IT BLOODY isn't my work! I have nothing to do with microbiology or bacteria! I am dealing with tissues, cells and cancer-related stuff! WHAT the HELL?!

I would have been happier if he had told me frankly that he wanted me to HELP him...but not KEPT mentioning it is MY EXPERIMENT! Well, maybe I benefited from everything he asked me to do since I learnt a lot of new techniques which might be handy in the future...

Anyway, I think blogging in the uni is the best since I can have ABSOLUTE silence here! haha!

SICK!

Okay, life is going downhill for me....So much things to handle and I can't manage any of them.. I am down with lotsa puking, a night of high fever and now, every muscle aches...I haven't been eating since monday, coz no matter what I eat, it will come out the same way it goes in...It amazes me somehow coz I had an apple at 10am and i ended puking it around 7pm-undigested...hahha! Well, look at the bright side, I am losing weight...but i know, it is the water weight...maybe 200grams of fats? yippie!

As cheerful as I had made myself sounded, I don't FEEL the same way after all...I had to take care of THE KID and I actually got this fever-puking disease from him! DAMN that KID! GRRRRR! He had recovered fully but he is SO SO SO GOD DAMN ANNOYING! He is attention seeker, so he WAILED and SCREAMED (just imagine those noisy little punk you saw on train or in the shopping mall crying just to get something they want!)....I feel like kicking him in the face and tell him

"You know what? Life is not about crying and getting what you want...Life is about being kicked and STILL you don't get what you want."

Hey, I am not being evil here, my mum never gave in to our tantrums..We'll ended up being spanked until you shut the *tut* up....I believed my mum taught the right way since it is way too annoying to hear him SCREAMING over nothing EVERY SINGLE FUCKING MINUTE! He has to be with someone and that someone has to entertain him every single second! Talk about clowning...I am not spared from being a clown myself, so I guess I'll grad with a PhD in Clowning. I need to move out ASAP! I can't stand kid crying like that coz it is REALLY THE MOST ANNOYING THING!

He screamed when the food is still warming up-until he gets the food into his mouth
He screamed when is he bored and no one's playing with him
He screamed when his parents is talking to someone else and not him
He screamed every single time he wakes up
He screamed when he take bath
He screamed when he is irritated
and the winner is : he screamed over NOTHING!

I remember telling everyone I knew that I really hated kids screaming and of coz, I only like kids who talked a lot and seems to be able to play on his/her own..Well, maybe just blame on my biological clock...I am not the mother material yet...I am still a STUDENT, yearning for life without heavy responsibility...

one more bad news, my backache is back due to carrying him around...GRRR! he is so heavy! I had been trying to avoid carrying him for a few days now...On monday, I had to take care of him when his parents are at work! I am a nanny as well...I can't stand this responsibility anymore.. I need to break free!

Run, Connie, RRUUUNNNNN~~~ I don't wana wake up 5am and returning home 10pm...I had enough...It is either a relaxing PhD or I am not gonna finish my PhD here!