freezing....

today, it was ZERO degree for the whole day and it was foggy....it was freezingly cold and the heater is useless... here is some pictures...taken around 1pm...

hehehe! from this picture, i can only think of one thing.....CHRISTMAS is here!!!! i cant wait for christmas~~ ermm...by the way, i am not christian...hahhah! just someone trying to have fun and enjoy the atmosphere~ i guess it'll be snowing again tonight...

erm...by the way, my coursemates are still calling me...i wonder why they cant text me instead of calling since i hadn't been answering any calls...see? i have the willpower of not picking up calls...and i didn't even sign in for msn...muahahhahahha! i guess i need to be fair to everyone, so i didn't pick up their calls, so i shouldn't be chatting around either...i will continue to MIA for a few days...to spend some time alone...with no one yapping...it felt so good to take things easily and it just seemed like i am the one controlling my own time...rather than being dragged around doing stuffs for other people....

blessing or headache?

i had just received an email from my Professor stating that there will be a preliminary interview for placement during May....i had no idea if the interviewer (s) is/are from different companies or our own lecturers....

just when i dont have the mood for talking, i need to go for an interview...hahha! just my luck.... this may just be the message telling me that i should stick to being my old-self....the chatterbox who never stop talking nonsense...

hmm....though i had no idea about the interview, i dont seem to be nervous at all....i wonder why....i am already in the holiday mood i guess! hahahha! i cant wait for christmas~ everyone is asking me out~ yay! Cant wait for christmas celebration~ hahahhah!

me, myself, & i.....

these days, i just dont feel like chatting with anyone (either msn or face to face)...yea...and i dont know why...i even silent both my hps and not picking up any calls and returning any smses....i dont know why, dont ask me...

i didnt blog yesterday, neither pick up calls nor attended any classes.... wow...talk about being anti-social...hhahah! even today, my mood is still the same...at least i blogged...hahahha! i did nothing...i stayed in my room for two days...erm... looking out the window....but at least i did chat with my housemates for a while and did some cooking and stuff... i feel like a 60 years old, grumpy old lady stuck in a 23 years old's body....hhahahha!

anyway, my coursemates had been calling me (i dont know for what god damn reasons).... make a guess? the assignment due next friday....this is the worse assignment of all...probably due to lotsa research gathering, understanding, software utilising and of course, how to interprete the data (this is not as easy as it sounded)...the data is about all the atoms and their positions in the protein and you'll have to know which atom bonded will give you the catalytic sites, subsites as well as providing stability and correct conformation of the structure...

i will DEFINITELY REJECT helping them this time...i am sorry, but i really cant help you guys...BECAUSE:
1. everyone is doing different protein
2. it's IMPOSSIBLE for me to read all the materials and understand their protein
3. it's IMPOSSIBLE to read more than 50 journals for each protein within a few days
4. there are 7 coursemates ringing me for this
5. 7 coursemates + myself multiplies by at least 50 journals =400 journals minimum

see the above calculation? a minimum of 400 journals to read? impossible to help...i am sorry, but this time, i cant be SAVIOUR anymore...you guys gotta move your ass and stop being so lazy... i cant spoon feed you guys all the time...i think i had done more than enough for the past few assignments and i am very tired DUE to their laziness...

YAY! at last!! i learnt to say NO! but....i didnt actually said that YET...i had been avoiding their calls only...hahahhaha! hopefully nothing happens on monday...PLEASE have MERCY on me...i am just another normal human being....i am going to pray real hard starting from today till next friday....PLEASE....dont ask me questions regarding assignments...i feel bad not to answer or teach, so i rather they dont ask me...just in case i give in and agreed to teach them...

ALL of you MUST pray for me!!! ALL!!

being FFKed

I had been FFKed (Fong Fei Kei aka being let go an aeroplane- literal translation from cantonese).....by who? my partner whom is supposed to be presenting some DNA sequencing topic with me! damn!

basically, this 'thing' did nothing! i prepared the whole damn slides and he didn't turn up for the presentation! last week, i reconfirmed with him about his attendance for this presentation! he was supposed to meet me up on monday and share some research we had done! this damn damn damn 'thing' didnt even reply my email, my sms and calls! he better de dead, or i'll make his life suffer a hell more than mine! argh!!!! anyway, i had to make up an excuse for him on why he didnt turn up for the presentation! (i didnt know what happen until now).....

From this lesson, i learned that we should be prepared for the worst...i was so damn busy with my assignments, he didnt even manage to get his ass here for a presentation?! argh!

i guess i am so mad due to another reason..which makes me double mad! know what? i was in the IT room to print out my proposal thingy and this nigerian guy suddenly just put his hand behind my back and when i turn, his face was like just an INCH away...no, no, correction, should be a centimeter away! Thanks to my pancaked-face (not as protruding as caucasians), we didnt make any contact! damn! i hate guys like this! i didnt even know him!!!!! he is just a hi-bye friend nothing else...i was so busy and he kept on yapping beside me...by that time, i was kinda furious and i said 'look, i am very busy, can we talk some other time? i need to turn in this proposal like in 10 minutes...sorry, catch up with ya later'......

i know i sounded harsh, but i am really in a hurry! and u know what's the best part?? he return after 2mins (i think) and said 'can you teach me about gene mapping?'

yea, i know what you guys are thinking.....what the heck! i just said i am busy! then i said 'i can teach you later, but not now, i am very busy'.....then, he returned to his computer and after what seems like another 2 mins to me, he returned again 'can i borrow your calculator?'

Damn! at that point, i really wanted to ask him to shut the *tut* up! BUT, i managed to control my anger and fished out my calculator from my bag....and even passed it to him with a smile...argh!

not to mention, when i attended the lecture, he kept on asking 'connie, are you okay?', 'are you alright?' , 'what is that you have to pass up?' bla bla bla....he just keep on yapping.....and i was like 5 seats AWAY from him with his friend in between us...yea, initially, it was like 8 seats in between us....but two noobies forced me to move over....

and plus, today...i went to hand in one of my proposal and my tutor was really super-duper pleased with it...he kept on praising the porposal and my another coursemate, (both of us under the same tutor) and she was annoyed...my tutor turned to her and say 'yours was good, but there are still rooms for improvement'...

then, when we left the room, she snatched my proposal and ask 'can i read it?'.....i was like...you robbed me and you are asking if you can take it? weird? then, in the lecture, she complained to her pals that our tutor keep on praising my stuff and didnt really talked about hers...then she complained and complained and complained....

then, her BFF, came over to me and said 'you did very well, didnt you? i heard..bla-bla-bla'
i really wanted to tell everyone to shut the *tut* up!! ....i guess that's why i am so mad today....

anyway, everything is over....and i can just hope for a better tomorrow....

something to be shared...

hmmm...human health state is getting worse nowadays...due to DNA mutations, tumour growths are induced....hopefully some anti tumour protein can be generated to cure cancer...and that would be a miracle...for your information, a potent cytotoxin known as BS-RNase had been developed and it's currently undergoing clinical trial (phase 1 & 2)to CURE cancer....however, it causes some side effects....(eg: degeneration of testicular tissues, affect embryonic growth as well as the maturation of oocyte)....

so, here come my research...recently, i had found out that a potential cytotoxin, lactoribonuclease, had been isolated. It has similar molecular weight and N-terminal amino acid protein as BP-RNase....So, the experiment i'll design is to engineer the protein into dimer, trimer and possibly tetramer form...(rational? BS-RNase (dimer) active, but non-specific cytotoxin, BP-RNase (monomer) lower cytotoxin activity, but more specific).....so, i'll just engineer the protein structure and test its activity....

i can only propose this research, but not to conduct it due to Human Tissue Act and i am not yet a biotechnologist...MOREOVER, i had tonnes of assignments waiting for me...

currently, i am also doing research on production of antibodies from plants and animals (eg: anti-S, insulin, hepatits B)...it's all possible~~

ps: i am actually praying that my coursemates wont be calling me up in the middle of the night again....i really need some time off!!

miracles......indeed

okay, lets start off with happy stuffs...

Today, it was raining cats and dogs in the morning, which makes it freezingly COLD! Anyway, i managed to drag myself out of the bed and bath...One of my housemates invited her twin brothers to stay for the weekend...Since I was quite busy, i didnt have the time to talk to them...So, i went out after bathing to buy some chocolates (some = 12 bars)....Since they are so cute (and the fact that i feel bad for ignoring their existence for the past 2 days), i gave them my chocolates~ nice of me? yea.....i gave each of them 4 bars with different flavours...and i am left with 4 bars....here comes the bad news.....

i FINISHED the 4 bars in a day....which made me saturated with chocolates right now and i think i really need to QUIT chocolates....i had been saying this for a long time, but i didnt really take any action....hm...i had been doing some observation on myself, and i found that i am too obsessed with chocolates that i had been eating chocolates everyday!! seriously, i need to quit..argh! anyway, toss this thing aside...

i finished my assignments~ HOWEVER, there are a few adjustments to make (final touch ups)... and i am quite satisfied with it...i managed to design an experiment for potential anti tumour protein....but i still need to come up with details though...roughly, i know what i am doing, but i need to search for more sources so that i know how to alter the protein...kinda tough...but i must do it! who knows i can create miracles for those who need them? after all, i had been blessed with a lot of miracles...and i hope i can give others miracles too....but too bad, what i did will only be a proposal as i am not a PhD student...

needed a break...

i had been battling with my assignments nonstop while my coursemates had been busy throwing questions at me....kinda headache with them calling me at the middle of the night (around 1am) just to ask some questions....i am wondering, why cant they start other assignments and call me at decent hour instead? that's kinda inconsiderate, right?

anyway, i had been doing assignments for more the 7 hours straight today! but of course, with my life-sustaining source with me all the time (chocolates)....i had been doing this since thursday and managed to finish 2 assignments...anyway, i planned to go for shopping spree after being tortured like this....i need to restock my chocolates....(main purpose)...

i kept dreaming about home and both my grandpas! It has been a few days and i had been dreaming of them in different scenarios, of course...hahhaha! i guess i was too tired for the last few days...and not to mention a bit homesick due to some inconsiderate people who keep on talking about Malaysia food.....hmmppphh!!! anyway, the WESTERN food are nice too~ i wont let you guys keep on tempting me like this!!

yesterday, a long lost friend contacted me so suddenly that i am shocked to see him msn me~ anyway, i wish him best of luck in everything.....

better continue on my assignments... let's just pray that i can finish it ASAP~~