angels n demons

VERSUS

we are surrounded by angels and demons everyday....once, i had this angelic friend...but due to some problems caused by a demonish act, i had to lose this angel....no matter what happens, i'd still wish this angel and the demon all the best in their future...hopefully everything will be cleared and everyone finds their own angels soon...

i used to have an aim in my life...i told a friend about this, and all that i get is asking me to wake up and face reality....my aim is very simple....to leave footprints in everyone's heart....i wanted to make a difference in a person's life even if it's a stranger...i really hope that my existence in this world will make a difference...hopefully a better one...make this world a better living place for all...i am not giving a speech as in beauty pegeant contest...and i hope everyone can try this out...you'll be happy if you can help someone....

what doesn't kill you makes you stronger..

hmm...after thinking it through, it wasn't such a big deal after all....umm....since that email doesn't even kill me, i guess it makes me stronger....i had never thought that there would exist such an immature person in this world....i guess she didn't know that a guy and a girl can be just close friends without any chemistry going on...i should just tell this girl my reason... it's a very simple reason..."A guy and a girl can remain friends as long as they find each other repulsive enough to be friends".....and so, i really find your guy repulsive enough to be just my normal friend, my dear...those hurtful words you wrote in the email, didn't hurt me, but it pointed how uncivilised you are and you should reflect on yourself...

and....i seriously don't understand why can you hate me when you had NEVER seen me before in your life??? gosh....at least explain to me why you hate me...hahhaha^^ coz i am a bit curious...i had NEVER seen you, i DON'T know your NAME, NEVER heard your VOICE.....vice versa...how can you hate a person like that?? wow! you are unbelievable...

i have one more announcement to make.....i will be joining a club dubbed 'Jerks Hating Club'.....everything is just making me more n more disappointed in guys...i am not saying there isn't a good one...i know there is a nice one...too bad, he isnt available anymore^^ wedding bells are ringing^^ and guys, if you know your jealous gf will kill an innocent person, you better keep ur @ss clean and stop asking girls out....

WTF!

i am posting this to a girl who has view my photo and i dont know from where you viewed me, i don't give it a damn! if you dare to email me with such a RUBBISH email to hurt my feelings, i DARE you to show who you are! why register a new email just to criticise me? if you like to scold people so much, go back, look into the mirror and scold, you physco!

i did nothing wrong and i am not scared to post this blog just for you to see! you can comment, i dont care! and ONE more THING, I HATE the LANGUAGE you USED!

exam^^

exam on this coming tuesday...4th of november...but...it's at 3-4pm i think...still not very sure about the time...um....yea, yea, i know, i know....how i can forget the time right? i also dont understand why i had forgotten the time, okay? who wants to forget their timetable?

anyway, since it's an afternoon paper.....it means i dont have to study till tuesday^^ i am so happy....oh yeah!!!! umm...by the way, mum, if you are reading this blog, just act as if you didnt see what i blogged^^

and for my sisters, dont you guys tell mum about it....hhahahha! anyway, i guess she knows me too well....THIS IS ME....muaxxx!

i have a really serious question for my friends...Is there a difference between eyeliner and eyebrow liner???? i thought it was the same thing...umm...i am not so sure now...damn! am i even a girl? tell me in msn, girls...

my friend, dont be upset^^

hm....still getting all sorts of msgs...and i dont know who are them actually...but who cares....as long as they dont call me, then it'll be okay...

again...guys really cause lotsa troubles....hate to see my friend in such a condition...just get over it...after what he'd done and he come back crawling? serves him right! it's up to my friend if she wants him back....but he cheated on her! he gave damn lame excuses for cheating! 'you are too busy with your Uni work and you dont have time for me..' what the heck?! i thought that jerk should've known my friend studied in the first place! what's wrong with doing Uni's work and not being able to go back hometown for a meet up? damn! another long distance relationship failure...anyway, it's just another lame excuse...he can come and meet her, right? why should the girl making all the scarifices? at least my friend is busy with Uni work and not busy going nuts after guys! (which is exactly what he did...going nuts over girls)

seriously, i dont trust guys anymore^^ i just dont.....coz as said by my another friend 'guys don't follow their brains, they follow their d*ck..'.....i think it's true as even my guy friends admit! and for the guys out there, don't be offended by what i had mentioned, as this is a personal opinion^^

maybe there are really guys who follow their brains, but they should be driven near to EXTINCTION...trust me^^ seen too much cases...hhahahha! and for girls out there, please....do not go and interfere a couple's life, back off! if he can dump his girlfriend for you, he can dump you for another girl...

oppsss...no matter what i said, it is based on observations not experiences....ahhaha! so, i may be wrong^^ who knows, you might just bagged the almost extinct creature^^ my best of luck to you my friend...dont be upset over this kind of stuff....you have more to worry than a stupid jerk^^

seriously deprived in sleep...

the reason??? my HOUSEMATES! i dozed off after i blogged this morning (like until 5am)...then, my housemates started to knock on my door at around 8am, i guess....they keep on throwing me questions and persuade me to follow their advices...argh! i wont give in no matter what! cant be follower forever and this is an impoartant part of my life, i dont wana end up with tonnes of break ups before finally settling for the 'right' one....

they keep telling me that the nice guy's name is G, 30 years old...having a double degree..(still studying one of the degree).....and he is nice...blablabla.....argh! the worst thing is that....this guy stay just right opposite my unit...once i open my main door, it'll be his main door! damn! i didn't even know that!!!! sh*t!

and for the J guy, he is a PhD student, 1st year...dunno bout his age...blablabla....argh! headache! and another O guy, is from Scotland...dunno what he majored in....23 years old...blablabla....the other guy, D, from Ireland...studyin IT i guessed...if i remembered it right...there are just too much information in one day...and i am not interested in knowing any of it...i wana sleep.....

ha-ha........not funny at all! you know what??? G, D,& O is staying right opposite my unit...talk about bad luck! and the J guy, they told me he stayed 2 floors below! sh*t....i am worried about bumping into any of them...from today onwards, i'll stay in my room...(as if i wasnt staying inside often...shesshh! seriously, i spend most of my time inside my room....)...it's not that i dont wana socialise....but i just wana stay out of troubles and i hoped to peacefully finish my master and bid sayonara to them ASAP!

after kepoing with me, my housemates now went to the guys' unit to kepo...sigh...more troubles...and one more thing....my housemate ordered me to text G before i sleep this morning...but i didnt...he ended up waiting! damn! felt guilty....but i really dont wana text him, coz i dont want more troubles coming...i dont know if my decision is correct, but at least i didnt lead him on...right? so what i did should be good for him, better for me, right? argh!

okie...enough of blogging....need to eat^^...my cure for worries....let's pray that nothing happen and it was all a mistake...they recognised the wrong person...yay!

ps: jojo, i think what you'd experienced for the past few months is what i am experiencing right now...argh...will talk to you P&C soon^^

deeper than deep SH*T !!!!!

nice costume...my housemate

i dont know his name..


he is heath ledger....

my make up, done by flick^^

cant get the whole dress though....

me and my costume..'bloody sexy doctor'

non human dancing in da living hall

doctor and diva^^

my costume....

damn...(this is the best word to express my feelings right now)....sh*t!!!!!!

it was only today that i know i looked nice (as in above average)....i attended this damned halloween party (which i shouldn't have).....as said by K (my housemate), she'll bag several guys....it didn't come true....and the worst part is.....my phone number had been passed around like hell!!!! i am going to die!!!! argh!!! one anonymous call can make such a fuss...imagine 20 times the trouble....i didn't do my own make up for halloween...as Flick help me...i had never ever used so much make up on my eyes before (i seriously don't know how to apply eye shadow).....i admit i do look nice after tonnes of make up, but i am still a simple girl compared to them...they looked fabulous!

anyway, after my number had been passed around, all of them decided to go clubbing....so, i am being dragged there...we went to MOOD..which is one of the best R&B club in town...each of us paid 6 pound per entry and went clubbin...i went to this place before but this time, it is packed!!! we arrived around 11pm and partied till 3.30am....it was tiring...but i liked dancing...lotsa guys bought me drinks and i just kinda pass it around to other girls...the more i pass it around, the more it kept coming to me! damn! i had no choice but to drink every drink offered! luckily, my dad equipped me with drinking skills which i dont get drunk easily....while i was dancing, there is this J guy keep askin me to dance with him! hell! i don't dance with guys! luckily, flick rescued me again and again and again....so many times....and there is another guy who guard around me (luckily...he is a nice one...didnt even touch me a bit)...thanks to him, i am safe^^ i just hate that J guy! he keep messagin me...i shut him off by saying i had a steady boyfriend...he asked 'why didn't he come?'....i stucked for a moment and said 'he is away...'.....

J said 'long distance isnt gonna work...you are very stunning, and cute'...since i am da 'bloody sexy doctor', he kept on taking my stethoscope and asked me to listen to his heartbeat! damn! i really wana tell him 'can you please F**k off? you have cardiovascular disease, wont live for long' argh!!!! but i cant say that right? i can only smile and do NOTHING! and da nice guy kept helpin me to push him away....it was really my luck that this guy came over and helped me....

in the club, as i walked by, the guys would call out to me and say he want a heart transplant...damn! arghh!! not once! from what i remember, it was like 6 to 7 different guys?!!! there r so many ppl dressing up so sexily..(you should know...British girls...the practically wear nothing)....my bother disturbing me?!....and as we were leaving, we had to walk down from 3rd floor (it's a 3 floors club), there are lotsa guys staring at me..i really felt so uneasy....and there are 3 guys suddenly touch my chin to turn me around and said 'you looked pretty, girl'...and others would suddenly touch my face....argh!!!! and there is a girl (i guess she called Lucy?)...a friend of da J guy, keep on holding on to me to dance with her...she wear a loud red lipstick and kissed me on da cheek! as if addicted, she kissed me thrice on the cheek! damn! argh!!! flick tried to drag her away....coz flick wana match make me with da nice guy...i keep dodging all night...and i am very tired...i didnt enjoy as much as i did back in Malaysia...i guess i miss jojo and winnee who are such a great dancer and very responsible dancer....whenever i danced with the both of them, i know we'll be alright eventhough we were surrounded by wolves...i missed you guys a lot.....

around 3.30am we walked home...in high heels, 1 degree! i am freezing!!! just 3 of us walked together (flick, nice guy and i)...the J guy wana follow, but luckily we lost him somewhere...i felt that i am very lucky as i am in luck...nothing bad happened (not as bad as i thought it would be)...just that my number had been passed around so much...i dont even know their names...sh*t....what am i supposed to do? change my number? headache...we'll wait and see...(don't move before the enemy does - chinese proverb)...ahhahaha!

anyway, it's a very good experience...i love the costumes, but i hate the guys!...gosh! shouldn't say i hate guys...sounds lesbian...hahha! i hate guys with motives...if being friends, i dont mind..i just dont wana be more than friends....

p.s: i am happy to receive all those flattering compliments, but it did not convinced me that i am pretty...i am just a simple average girl next door....and i dont wanna get all those attentions...

almost forgot! the clubbing pics will be uploaded some other time...coz i didnt take any photos...all taken by my housemates...wait till she pass it to me^^